I went to my 1st AA meeting this past Fri. I was sooo scared cuz there was like 70 people there crammed in a little room. It was a guest speaker night apparently. Anyway, got my 1st chip to stop drinking and a copy of the big book. Met a lady who gave me her # and she gave me a link to a smaller women's group that meets daily. Here's my 2 problems: I know the whole "god is what you make of it "stuff. I told her I'm agnostic/atheist. She said "that will work itself out". I think all religion is a sham, so I don't know how it will. The 2nd thing is everyone was hugging and touching me(out of support) and standing in my face. I have anxiety/panic disorder, too and have HUGE personal space issues. I had to take 2 xanax cuz I started having tons of chest pain and couldn't breathe. Are all meetings this way? (so touchy feely). I can't stand to have people touching me or being so close but I didn't want to be rude. Have been reading the book, though and it has been like looking into a mirror and I'm only on chapter 4. Thanks.
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