Rich,

Tomorrow morning take a few minutes to write down your feelings and the what you think might have caused your relapse in either in your DS journal or a notebook. Journaling on a regular basis is an effective tool for us to recognize our own behavioral patterns and head off potentially harmful actions in the future. If your journaling on DS and have it open to friends, they can also lend support and advice.

Then look online for an AA meeting in your area. Select a location you like, go to the meeting a few times and find someone you click with who is willing to be your sponsor. I think this kind of personal support would be very beneficial to you Rich.

It's always a little unnerving the first time you go to an AA meeting, not knowing anyone there and what they might think or say. But believe me, those attending have all been exactly where you've been before. We all have. Most likely you will be welcomed with open arms. Just take a buck with you, as it's customary to pitch in for the coffee or room rental.

There are some other community-based groups available that Andrea and others are more knowledgeable on, so I will defer to these friends on this topic.

Wishing you the best on this new start!

Robert

Like I said, I have been following you and I really hope you figure it out. I too have been there. I don't do AA, but maybe it may help u. Possible therapy? I know people have suggested books to you.
I do know that 'nothing changes if nothing changes'...
We will always find a reason or excuse if we choose to drink. I wish u well.

Hi Rich,
Today is a new day. Get right back up. Sending hugs.

If at first you don't succeed , dust yourself of and try again. YOU CAN DO THIS Rome wasn't built in a night nor was the world created in one, Hang in there sending Big hugs to you.