Hey,
I'm glad you're here. I think that what you're feeling-your frustrations with people who you wish would support you-are totally normal. I think it's important to realize that right now YOU are what matters. Regardless of whether those people stand by you, YOU need to protect yourself. You are brave, and we are here for you.

I'm not really frustrated. I'm just sad about it. But regardless, I know I"m going down the right path. I just didn't realize the ones I thought were ride or die, actually aren't I'll keep moving forward and try to stay focused. With a few crying session late at night in my room lol

I have found that some people become uncomfortable when we are working on changes to improve ourselves. It’s not you or that they aren’t supporting you, it’s that you are making things too ‘real ‘ for them. As I have been there myself (and sure you know) I know that scary feeling that there’s something wrong that needs fixing. Seeing a sober lifestyle is sobering and not everyone is ready for that. Never know, your path may inspire someone to change too. Just learn how to be solid in ourselves and those who are receptive will see it.

When I got sober I discovered how toxic some of my relationships were. Some I worked on and improved significantly. Others I let slip away. As I worked on me I discovered that it was just time to move on. It wasn't easy and I was lonely at first. Now, I trust myself and I make good choices. This attracts people that are healthy and fun.

Somehow they liked you passive and drunk. Their agenda was easier when you were not sharp and coherent.

Bottom line is as a drinker I sought other drinkers to surround me so my drinking seemed normal.

May I suggest not isolating and finding some new friends. I have some real true friends now that would walk thru fire for me. ( and I for them). I found new friends in aa.

Focusing on the people and things from the past that we perceived as being fun, happy moments, are really in the past which is no longer alive. We can recreate them our mind by thinking about them but there is a danger in that because all thoughts lead to form at some point so I have become very careful about the thoughts that cross my mind. It's all about mind control or mastery over one's mind.

Meditation is the best tool I have found for that because it allows us to go inside the operating system of our mind and reprogram it to heal us and to create a better future for us.

I highly recommend.

God Bless

As I changed for the better, my habits changed, my plans changed, and the people changed.

I’m much the better for it.