I quit many, many times. One day, one week, One time I quit for 2years... I always drank again because without booze I was angry and depressed and the time would come where I would crack... these times I never dealt with the underlying reasons why I drank. I just stopped the drinking and my crazy brain was still thinking alcoholicly.

This time I found help in the rooms of aa and took a look at the causes and why I HAD to drink. It was basically fear and a feeling of not worthy / enough. I had some help from others to realize I simply process alcohol differently and I’m not a bad person , just alcoholic.

This time my last drink was June 9,2012. It’s been over 6 years. I went to a meeting today and honestly think I would be drunk or dead without a group of other recovering drinkers to lean on. See I get crazy thoughts and then I drink. Today I get crazy thoughts and call someone and vent and then a day goes by and I didn’t drink and things get better.

It takes the power of booze away and let’s me make a choice to stay sober. Life still happens and instead of hiding in a bottle I go to a meeting.

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How do you deal with the underlying reasons for needing to booze so hard? The key for me was to find something to replace the booze.

I have been twice. The second time, I paid attention to what the counselors told me.

If you feel you need it then talk to your doctor who can give you a referral if he thinks it will help you. Your doctor is in a better position to discus treatment options with you. Keep us posted.

God Bless