I'm sorry to hear of your grief over your cat. His pain is over, do something about yours while you can. The answer is not in a bottle, its depressant effect, together with your physical state, are the furthest thing from an answer you could hope to find.

Do something differently - you only have one life too.

I agree so go find something else to do today. Drinking won't do anything but make you feel worse.. You know I always believed my dogs knew when I was drinking because I didn't pay as much attention to them. They'd come looking for me and start rubbing up against me and sometimes whining... It's like they were saying oh no not again.. They are smarter than you think... So would your kitty want you to drink? I know the thought of other animals probably makes you sad but maybe go volunteer at a animal shelter today. It may make you feel better than you think... Your kitty would be proud of ya and you'd be giving back to those that haven't found a forever home yet...Hugs, T

thank you, both, for your replies.

I've been making a pig of myself on various groups on this site, to deal with this, and I have so many thank yous to catch up.

I am so sorry.

The pain of losing a loved one, whether it is a pet or a person, can cut deeply. Even if it was the best for your cat, and I and I am sure it was, that doesn't make the pain go away.

The grieving process might seem more difficult sober, but I think you will find it is more pure. Ultimately I think we come to terms with loss better than when we drink to cover or escape our feelings.