Hello Mar32,

All I can tell you is that several years ago now I was in a really bad place. I decided that I had to stop drinking and then found that I couldn’t do it despite my best efforts.

There were a lot of things that I said I would never do, including going to an AA meeting. However, when the chips were down and the future looked terrifying, someone said to me: “Go to a meeting – you won’t regret it”.

I did, and I didn’t.
Maybe you could do the same.

Today is my 4th day sober. What I found is someone on this site that I talk to everyday, and numerous times a day. When I have cravings I get on this site or look up ideas of how to curb the craving, I also found that there is online AA classes. get on this site and post. the first day I was on here (first day I was sober) and I asked for support and got a ton, if you need someone to talk to I am here. Day three was rough for me but day four, I feel amazing that I made it through day three. your cravings will come on and peak and will dissipate quickly. ride it out and you can do this. You Can Do This

Alcohol is a drug. I was addicted and just couldn't quit on my own. I walked into an AA meeting in June of 2012 and found help getting over my addiction. Saved my life
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I had reached my low. I lost everything and everyone near and dear to me so I was motivated to do everything it took to stay sober. I went though a safe hospital detox for 4 days. This was followed by an IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) where I was treated for the underlying issues that triggered my addiction such as depression and ptsd. This was followed by 3 weeks of counseling where I learned what my triggers were and how to deal with them. Throughout all the treatment I had, regular attendance at AA meetings were a requirement.

9 years ago, I didn't want to live anymore. I threw my hands up in the air in an angry prayer to God and said, " I give up! It's your turn to take control of my life! I just can't do it anymore!" This was the defining moment in my life. From this point on, everything changed for the better. It seemed like some Higher Power was manipulating the pieces of the puzzle of my life and placing them exactly where they needed to go. I had money coming in from places I never expected, my marriage improved, I got a new job that I really liked alot, and I made alot of new sober friends at AA meetings, who would do anything and everything to help me stay sober!

It was 9 years ago that I my life turned around when I decided to get sober. Today I have a great life and I have never been happier! Good luck on your road to recovery!

God Bless

Thank you all for your words ... my will is there, it's strong. I keep reading online about the health benefits of quitting alcohol, to motivate me. I keep a journal with goals and aims to challenge me, i think about the money i'm saving. It's kind of starting to feel like a relief.

I also found this link it helps me a lot
https://www.brighteyecounselling.co.uk/alcohol-drugs/coping-with-drugs-alcohol-cravings/

Apart from the withdrawal symptoms, i think the no 1 thing that caused my escalated addiction was boredom ... thankfully in 2 weeks i start a new job and hopefully that will help me start to rebuild my life again!

Get a program whatever it is.