Its sounds like you are ALMOST there.....For me...I had to be sick of being sick all the time. And then I had a desire to stop drinking. You could seek help from a counselor. Start talking out your problems and have someone that you have to be accountable to every week. But, if you don't have coverage, this might be hard.

I would say go to AA..the next time you want a drink and you certainly SHOULD do that if you can bring yourself to do it. But, I know kids your age (my son is 29) and when I mention N/A or AA - I lose their attention.

So maybe the next time you want a drink...go to a gym...distract yourself...eat something (eating changes everything). cravings pass in 3-5 minutes. But when it comes down to it....you will stop if you really want to and need to stop. And you will find the best way to do it. The first suggestion is always attend a meeting...but if that isn't going to work for you right now...my suggestion is DISTRACTION...AVOIDANCE of the FIRST DRINK....pretend that you are allergic to it...

I'm sorry you are suffering from this horrible disease, which is progressive...I hope you find your way before you end up in more of a mess..Jails, Institutions and Death...is all alcohol has to offer ;(

Welcome. I was where you are --- but unfortunately stuck there for years and years too. Well past my 28th bday!
Don't. You can stop now.
AA worked for me. You might want to give it a try. There is tons of practical help on dealing with life sober, and really enjoying it too.

I found that I drank to avoid problems. For example, my boss did something that I did not like. I went and got drunk over it. I learned to face these situations. At first it was hard but I could no longer say " He got me so mad that I had to have a drink," After forcing my self to face the discomfort many times it go easy. I also found that I did not need drink to celebrate. I was very comfortable with the natural high and I did not make a fool out of myself.

If AA fits you try it. If not, do like I do and rely on the power within you to stop drinking.

Left to my own devices I would drink and the only reason I battled to sober up was I needed that job for my number one priority - plenty of alcohol. I lost every weekend either drunk or passed out. What a sad waste. At the end of my drinking there was no way I could keep any job or even rouse myself to think of getting another one.

I needed help and received that help from Alcoholics Anonymous so my weekends are pretty good now and it gets better each day, each year. I realised the drinking was a symptom of something much deeper and was guided through steps to address that.

I would suggest that if you have sober friends take inspiration from what they do with their weekends, try as many meetings as you wish where you will meet a lot of people who know where you are coming from. It's a much better option than sitting in a home surrounded by booze if your family members are still drinking. It's free, anonymous and a lot are sociable too.

Keep talking to us here and there is the option of online meetings too. Have a look at aa.org if you are in the USA.

If you are physically dependant on alcohol please ensure you detox safely, either under a doctor's care or through a detox centre.

This is simmilar to my story, however Im 19, had a problem since I turned 18 but I used to be able to stay sober for short periods of times, it used to be I only drank weekends, then I would drink every 2-3 days then it would be about 5 days drinking, 1 day sober....the problem just keeps getting worse and the more you do it the more you realise you dont even want it anymore. Ive recently had a lapse and I'm on day 2 again, would love to chat if you ever want to? Add me if you read this! :)