Hang in there. It does go away after a while. You just have to get past the feeling. Good for you on staying the course! T

If you find it too hard to get through this alone please be aware that there is a lot of face to face help and programmes for recovery accessible virtually everywhere, as well as online support groups such as this one.

Alcoholism can be hereditary, it's in my family too. I never set out to become an alcoholic either but here I am! I found a way to be free of the desire to drink through Alcoholics Anonymous.

If you want to be sober for your own sake without reservation you can find what works for you. I empathize, having been through this myself.

I don't know about you, but for me there's nothing more painful than drinking again - sure, there's the fabulous effect after a few, but then there's lots more drinks, misery, nightmares - and coming to in the morning to be greeted by my conscience.
Try thinking it through, and I'd suggest also getting support and help.

....and three cats are wiser than one - lol, I just smiled looking at the avatars!

Today is a new day... I will get through this with all of your support and of course the good Lord!

Im just angry my dad just passed away from abusing alchol and pills and now ive had to xome to my miserable reality, even though i dont take pills, i drank, ans hated it, but trying to change its just very hard and im just lost for words....

You can do it! One day at a time....

Maple37, welcome to the group.

So sorry to hear about your Dad, I lost mine and really lost the plot some years back. Then I got sober. I like to think he is watching over me, pleased to see that his daughter is living a happier life in sobriety.

You are feeling raw right now, I know words aren't much comfort so I send my empathy.

Hello maple37,

So sorry to hear about your dad and having been in that situation I know that words are not enough.

My dad passed away over a year ago and thankfully I was able to be there sober to do some of the things that needed to be done. You are angry and sad and that is natural so dont be too hard on yourself. With time you will feel better and until then you can lean on the people who care about you, including the ones here on DS.

When I was where you are now I tried to keep busy and to look at what I could do to try and help other family members. Keep posting here and dont isolate yourself and hopefully there will be better days soon.

I am an alcoholic and believe it or not....my father was killed by a drunk driver....go figure.....Hang in there.....you can do this.

Hope today was a good one and the next day even better ,,,way to go

The urge might be strong at times, but it will pass.

How is your day going today?