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Starting over.

Taradactyl
Taradactyl
Dec 5 is my new sobriety date.

Everyone has different opinions about this. In my opinion, I compromised my sobriety. Not debatable.

I had knee surgery Dec 1. I did ALMOST everything I could to avoid abusing the pain pills. I couldn't stay honest with myself or others about how much pain I had so I just took max prescribed dosage. No big deal. I maintained a half high for 3 days. Then hubby decided to give me 6 pills for the third night so he wouldn't have to wake up to dole them out every 4 hours. I took them all inside of a few hours with the conscious intent of getting high.

I woke up Dec 4 and flushed the remaining pills then canceled my Rx. I told my sponsor and a few other people. I decided that I couldn't handle showing up to get a start over token and was close to saying fuck it and drinking, so I put it off. I have not taken a drink in 67 days.

I will be getting a start over token this weekend or may just wait for my 30 days Jan 5.

Just wanted to share. I feel better with it out in the open. Thanks.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Wow! What an amazing story! Keep up the hard work, you are a true miracle!!!!!!!
gjm
gjm
sounds like growth to me, proud of ya. some believe if they don't drink and take pills the date remains the same. each there own. bottom line my friend is your clean & sober and growing, what more can ya ask for.

enjoy your holidays.
CoogeeMum
CoogeeMum
I've learnt much in my sobriety travels HTL, and the more I learn, the more is revealed, and the more there is to learn, and be aware of. Congrats on 67 days and also for waking up to what pills can do as well. Keep persevering, and hope the knee's healing well.
gr8ful2b
gr8ful2b
Hope your knee is doing better. I admire your courage in being honest Anna.

Much respect to you friend.
gr8ful2b
gr8ful2b
and I agree with both you and gjm. Some folks just have a different idea of what the term "sober" means. To each their own.
bootoo
bootoo
The important thing is that you saw where it was heading and took action...and you're back on track. I admire your honesty and it's always good to tell on yourself. Be proud of yourself too...in the end, you done good.
CarlaBent
CarlaBent
(((((Hugs))))) howtolive!!!! Good job keeping vigilant!!! And for taking care of business right away!!! Keep it up!!!!
I hope your knee surgery went well!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Real good awareness Nabe.
Hydro's are an epidemic and will really twist ya up.
Way to get honest.
Aleve works wonders,,IMO.
billwfriend
billwfriend
I congratulate you on giving up the pills...

It was very scary for me when I had my first knee surgery at about three and half years sober....the second one was not as scary..the third one well I got thru it...then came the fourth one and now the result is that I need new knees on both sides...that is completely scary...for that they give you time in hospital and morphine pump with a self medicating button on timer you push when you need it again....that is blowing my mind! I never want another surgery on my knees but to stop this constant pain I take pills which just yesterday morning lead to overdose of the wrong med for me....my anti depressant...see other thread...

I pray your recovery has already begun again and that you will never need any further scope surgery or need any other surgery for anything....

hugs bill
Taradactyl
Taradactyl
Hey Timmy... When I finally flushed the pills I realized the pain wasn't all that much worse without them. I have only been taking Aleve and Tylenol off and on for the past couple weeks.

I knew better than to even try taking meds that would get me high. I told the Drs I was recovering addict/alkie and requested a nerve block but they talked me out of it. It was the pain immediately following the surgery that nabbed me, and the funny thing was they kept pumping me with morphine and it was making no difference at all. The pills finally put me to sleep after about 30 mins. That was really all it took for my addict brain to kick in. I was buzzing them every 4 hours on the dot for the max dosage. I tried to keep myself there but just "caved" at the first opportunity to take more.

It was a learning experience. I never had a real pain pill problem before but I know I get quickly addicted and have the more more more mentality with anything mind altering.

Thanks all.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Anna, that's fantastic that you have been true to yourself, which is the most important thing of all, whilst also maintaining accountability to your sponsor and I guess even here.

Bill, could you discuss the morphine issue with the docs and rearrange it as a PRN oral dose? That would mean there is a break between the thinking and the acting, which is always a help to we addicts.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well you have to remember, the pills were prescribed for a reason and yes, you should've taken them as prescribed. When i have to take pain pills, I only purchase the days worth and then split those in 1/2 -

Proud of you for recognizing what could've been - you didn't let it happen and that's the real exciting thing in this post.

Hoping you are feeling better soon.

Hugs, peace, lots of love and many blessings.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Personally Olive I think celebrating TWO sobriety dates is fine!!!:D double the pleasure! Congratulations on NO alcohol for 67 days...thats great !
deleted_user
deleted_user
A willingness to do what it takes to stay sober. It shows that this is important to you. Ask God for help each day and you will grow in miraculous ways.
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