You could do actions to not get any more of these nasty things; like starting over. lol

We don't have tokens here Anna. What do you say to yourself when you go get one? Is it a commitment token. Are you fully committing to sobriety or only partially committing. One will have you working towards thinking, acting and speaking your goal, the other may see you thinking, acting and speaking the next drink.

Anna when I made the decision to stop, it needed to be a full commitment. This meant making sobriety the no.1 priority in my life. Without that, there was/is no life, and it meant making an action plan. Setting boundaries and making rules and sticking to them. No it wasn't easy. It was downright painful and tiring and I fought with myself daily. But I wanted sobriety so bad I was going to do absolutely everything necessary to get and stay sober. That was my commitment.

NO, It's not funny Anna. A token can remind you of your commitment and people can support you, but ultimately, you are responsible for the path you choose. I pray you find the courage and the want inside of you that will get you moving towards a better life.

i wouldn't worry about the tokens, or chips or what they represent. If you are trying to live up to the representation of these things then you maybe setting yourself up for a fall.

Just look at one day at a time of no drinking - change your routine, change your mind and take the "tokens and chips" .

Sobriety should be it's own reward. Some people enjoy the chips and tokens as a sign of accomplishment and some need it and then others tend to loose what they are looking for, which is sobriety and they get wrapped up in tokens, chips, etc and get a little unfocused on their personal sobriety - they are just trying to live by a token or chip.

I am not an AAer - i do support my friends who are in AA but sometimes when I hear people like yourself, it reminds me that there are other ways to sobriety and not just AA -

I do hope that AA finds it's way in working for you -

The most important thing is to not drink - and let the body begin it's detox and withdrawal process and be working on your mind and spirit.

Peace!

I think it's funny, "start-over tokens" are hard to swallow... it's a perfect metaphor, it definitely paints a picture... It's also kinda... healthy, to not completely FLOG yourself over a relapse, to temper it with a little humor... BUT, there's always a BUT, isn't there? BUT, then it's time to get serious, get down to business, like Coogeemum said, to make a full commitment to sobriety. It means going BEYOND the "I don't imbibe alcohol" phase, and jumping into the "I deal with my shit" phase. That's where I am, I'm knee-dip in the shit, how's that for painting a picture... I'm knee-deep in it, and I've never felt better in my life! Alllll around me, my life swirls in a giant, raging shitstorm, and here's me, right in the middle of it, grinning like a fool, because I'm sober.

Keep your sense of humor, htl, you're gonna need it. HAR!