So now you have been given a gift...you get to be sober and ALIVE to watch your children grow up.

Many things got uncovered for me as I tried to live sober, but I wanted to live sober, kind of forced me into a Corral.

Keep it up

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my kids have been taken from me, i have not seen them in 5 years. i will never see them again, social services saw to that, so that also has me to the point where i dont want to live or maybe get so trashed ill feel better. this life doesnt feel good

I would drink to numb my feelings then the next day my feelings would be magnified by 10!!
I drank over my past and felt sorry for myself for years.
I have 5 years sober and I do attend AA
My 2nd year of sobriety I got a friend request on My Space... It was my daughter that I gave up when she was 1 years old!! If it were not for AA and my sobriety she would not have ever found me.
My other daughter who's father raised her has asked me to help her for the first time ever and I am glad that she feels like she can ask me. I dont live in the past anymore I live in the "here and now" The past is the past and there is nothing I can do about it, I cant change it but I can do the best I can today and I do that "one day at a time"

Things take time and issues have to be addressed. In my experience we dont stop drinking and immediately feel wonderful.

Do the work and things will get better. Have faith in that, everything is temporary.

I think part of the acoholic/addiction mindset is thinking there is a quick and magical fix (in the bottle or with drugs). At least that was part of my insanity. But there's not, not in the real, hard, marvelous, mysterious world.

One thing IS beyond doubt - addiction makes us weak, frightened, sick and stupid. Battling addiction teaches us strength, common sense and maturity.

You do not know what wonderful things, experiences and people await a "sober you," so I respectfully suggest you put all your energy into sobriety and evolution and stay steady. Don't dwell on "poor me", take a look at other's sadness as well to give yourself some REAL context.

From the bottom of my heart I wish you strength. You are sober, do you want to stay sober? In my experience sobriety doesn't bring instant solution for my emotional or mental problems. I'm depressed for a long time and sober more then a year but I wouldn't exchange a sober day for a drinking day. Day by day I struggle with my depression but I'm so very grateful that God (a Power Greater then me) and AA keeps me sober day by day. I am not a happy recovering alcoholic - who is? The greatest gift is being sober...staying sober...accepting pain, accepting myself,.. out from the abyss of alcohol. I hate to be an alcoholic, but I know that I am. I cannot drink. If I'd drink there would be nothing, but nothing to live for. Alcohol wouldn't make you feel less depressed in the long run, a lot of people drink to dumb their depression, their pain. I did, too. It made everything worse. Please, have hope! Patience. Faith.

To be honest, I don't know what you are going through except that staying sober does not guarantee not being depressed. For me, staying sober helps me to stay honest with myself and know what I need to do to take care of myself.

When I was 3 years sober, I went into therapy for three years. If I was drinking, it would have never occurred to me and I wouldn't have gone so....

I hope you choose to stay sober. As someone used to tell me, "Don't stop until the miracle happens."

Hugs.

I am at the same point in my sobriety. I am going to AA regularly and just asked a fellow to be my sponsor. He is helping me realize that I am still at step one, and have to admit how unmanageable my life is. I'm also going to start treatment tomorrow...I'm finding that the alcohol was used to cover all my problems and I never really felt with anything.

Stay sober....in my case no matter how bad I feel, I'm just happy that I am feeling again :)

Best of luck to you, and look for the good things you do have! To me having feelings of any sort is a good thing

Congratulations on your sobriety. I can tell you that no matter whether you drink or don't, life isn't easy! For me, being in control, sober, means I can react responsibly. I try to make good decisions, but I don't lose sleep anymore - I want to have fun. None of us know how long we have or what our future holds, but you have a lot to offer and it is time to start enjoying yourself. If you are unable to see your children, then you need a support system - friends who have similar interests.

Join a ski club - there are activities all year long and wonderful people who like the outdoors! Maybe you like working on cars - whatever you enjoy (your passion) begin with that.

I dearly hope you will go forward and give yourself the opportunity to enjoy the adventures and surprises life has to offer if you will continue to stay sober.

Take good care.

i entered AA 2 years ago and conseling and i tell you what the pain it hurt, i was told in the meetings no pain no gain...that is a true statement for me. i did not want to cry in front of her or others and one day i relized earth needs rain to grow well we as humans need tears to grow letting go of past pain is a start for growth with out alcohol. You are stronger then you may think you hang in ther and fight the fight it took me 5 months befor i started to feel God working in my life. i live in the now. powerless over people places and things in life... KISS keep it simple silly is what they kept telling me. I have faith in you keep on keeping on. it works if you work it !!! we are all want amedate gratifcation ..oh who nicw when it does come in time it will....Many prayer to you on your journey...

i entered AA 2 years ago and conseling and i tell you what the pain it hurt, i was told in the meetings no pain no gain...that is a true statement for me. i did not want to cry in front of her or others and one day i relized earth needs rain to grow well we as humans need tears to grow letting go of past pain is a start for growth with out alcohol. You are stronger then you may think you hang in ther and fight the fight it took me 5 months befor i started to feel God working in my life. i live in the now. powerless over people places and things in life... KISS keep it simple silly is what they kept telling me. I have faith in you keep on keeping on. it works if you work it !!! we are all want amedate gratifcation ..oh who nicw when it does come in time it will....Many prayer to you on your journey...