Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I am getting a divorced and started making excuses to drink, just to get me through the hardest parts of the separation. But of course we all know how well that works when you're an alcoholic. This morning my Mom called me it for it, rightly so. So today I am struggling to not let myself go into the shame spiral. I feel like the worst person in the world for hurting the people I love over and over again. But I know from experience that sitting in shame won't help anyone or anything. So right now it's a second-to-second battle in my head, trying to force myself to avoid the shame and stay positive with a commitment to sobriety . I'm hanging in there and know when the alcohol has been out of my body longer it will help me be able to be more positive and the struggle with shame won't be quite so hard. In the meantime it feels very helpful to put this out there where there are people who understand and have the same struggles, knowing I don't struggle alone.
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
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I told myself I would not drink over it and I thought will power alone would help me fight the temptaion ....but I was wrong. I neglected AA meeting and never called my sponser. That was a mistake. So I missed out on the best emotional support I could have received and I hit the bottle.
I stopped after just a few drinks and looked up the next AA meeting in my area. It took awhile but I was able to let go of the shame, through prayer and meditation. There is an excellent book called "Healing the shame that binds me" by John Bradshaw. You can buy it for a few dollars, used, on Amazon.
My drinking and druggin caused irreparable harm to my wife so when opportunity came, in the form of an old high school sweetheart, she was history.
Two years after my divorce, I am happier now then I have ever been and I owe it all to the Grace of God and the 12 stepps of AA.
Good luck with your sobriety and God Bless!
By this I mean, what counts NOW is where you go NEXT.
Yes - the past is the past. No matter how much shame and guilt you put yourself through, the past will not change. What is done is done.
So . . . the question remains: what did you learn? And how are you going to use those lessons going forward?
I am writing this as much for myself as for you.
Hope that helps a little.
That way I could be at peace and use the experience to help others who were on the journey at a later stage in sobriety. That keeps me on a level and grateful to be the sober person I am today. It's my actions, not my words so much, that make the difference. It's amazing what can be repaired or resolved by living a positive and meaningful life.
One of the founders of AA put it in a nutshell - love and service. It's powerful for sure.
Seeing that truth as a adult and a sober adult at that helped me to begin to see that drinking may have just helped me to survive that trauma!! And with that I could begin to focus on what truth it pointed towards, without having to blame the Alcohol abuse as anything but a affect in the cause and affect formula of the human dilemma!
Emotional blindness only creates a status quo one continues to hide from Intellectually, emotionally and physically...The body never lies ...and lets one know there is a multitude of contributing factors to suffering be it a Christian , Buddhist or a atheist......
Bob made a very good suggestion to investigate ...Here's another:)))
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