I just had sex for the first time since getting sober. It was a great experience but also really nerve racking, stressful, and awkward. I'm a guy and I don't ever remember becoming so emotional and needy after getting laid. Before I'd just crack a beer, smoke one, or if I was drunk maybe ramble about feelings or something stupid. This time was different though I was legitimately feeling very insecure and needy. I felt like a woman, I wanted to cuddle after. Then the girl had to leave and I kind of felt like my feelings got hurt. Luckily I'm more self aware now so I was able to keep myself at bay until she left and not say anything that might compromise our relationship. But today I'm a mental mess! I should be pumped and happy and proud of myself for making such strides but my mind is all over the place in anxiety and over analyzing everything I did. Plus after the act I had a horrible trigger to go to the fridge and grab a beer, but that's not me anymore. I almost got like depressed afterwards because normally I'd celebrate with a beer and I don't do that these days.

Does anyone else notice changes like this? Maybe it's because it's been a while since I've dated or the fact that I'm sober now, most likely both. The thing is it was very real, very serious, and very emotional. It wasn't the light fun sex I remember, it was bring up all my personal issues at once shake the foundation of the relationship sex. Am I alone here?