Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
yet another day and night will pass and i can not stay sober at all. i am deathly scared to get straight because when i am sober i can not stand myself and i just hide away and close myself off to everything/everyone. i dont have anyone in my life that really gives a rats ass about me, i am all alone here. i have severe social phobia where i do not go out unless i am under the influence. that is when i do most of my personal tasks, when i am buzzed and not feeling anything mentally. also i suffer from insomnia so going to rehab wont do me any good at all, they will force me to sleep on no meds, well i would most likely die because if i dont sleep i get really sick, do they want my death on their hands? now see why i am scared to get straight....
Drinking alcoholically causes anxiety and depression. Quitting might not be a cure for what you are going through but it is a starting point.
I also suffer from insomnia. It was one of the reasons I first starting drinking excessively at night. I was quite surprised when I found I WAS able to sleep after I quit. My insomnia kicked back in after I was sober for awhile but I was better able to deal with it and use coping strategies that would work that did not involve passing out in a blackout at night.
If you don't want to go to rehab, then don't go, though I have to say that you sound quite melodramatic about it. Go to intensive outpatient. Go to AA. Or do what I did and make it through a single day without drinking and say the hell with it and quit despite all the excuses you have to keep poisoning yourself.
I care what happens to you.
There is hope.
Do not give up hope...
You think you are the only one with a phobia - not so!
Start slowly, but get out. Smile at people. People are just as shy as you are.
Take good care.