well beso, I'm afraid you're gonna need a lot more than luck if you think you were sober during that time solely because of the antabuse. I hope your own determination had a bit to do with it! But good luck to ya!

P.S. The antabuse didn't keep you sober for that period of time if you drank 2 beers anyways...better work on your way of thinking rather than relying on a chemical. You drank those 2 beers cause you wanted those 2 beers...if you want another 2 or 20, you'll have 'em. Do you want them? That's the question I think...

Gosh, I think you should ask your doctor that question. But keep coming here for support....we will be here for you!

I want to stay sober so I took antabuse to help me stay sober. I didn't really want the two beers that I drank while on antabuse - I drank them out of a psychological necessity...which was described in another thread a few weeks ago.

I've been sober since Sept 30 because of a combination of will power + antabuse. Can I remain sober now based on will alone? I think that is the question.

No. Willpower always fails alcoholics in regards to alcohol.

What you will need is a power greater than yourself. Sounds like antabuse was it. You're gonna need a new HP.

What's the time period drafter? If I get drunk in 25 years from now will willpower be proven to be a failure? If I throw myself into AA but relapse in 1 year is AA a failure? Off topic but curious. BTW I'm going to a meeting tomorrow.

Glad to hear it. My sobriety has nothing to do with willpower. It is a gift from God. That might sound ridiculous to some, but it's still true. Hell, I woulda laughed at that not very long ago. I think alcoholism has alot to do with an unquenched spiritual thirst.

OMG! Don't drink on antabuse... it can stop your heart! Thank God you're alive.

You will get out of your sobriety what you put into it. Positive action yields results every time! Achieving emotional sobriety (inner peace,Hope, being able to live in your own skin, peace, growth,etc) is way different than just being dry. If you are an alcoholic, alcohol is not your problem(it is the medicine you use to deal with your emotions), you have an emotional malady that must be treated on a daily basis. That's why we have been given a path to follow, and for me, that is the Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. Real simple program, just requires a bit of action and willingness.

In relation to the willpower question - you might stay sober a day, a week, a year on willpower but if you are an alcoholic the day will come when that willpower fails and you will drink again. Do you want to live never knowing when that day will come? Also in my experience being an alcoholic trying to stay sober on willpower is a painful and miserable existence. I personally would not recommend it to any alcoholic. Especially given that there is an alternative available which means that being sober can mean an amazing life without that constant fear of when the next relapse might happen.

what does willpower mean to you exactly? I mean, if you are going to sit around chompin at the bit for years on end for a drink that sounds miserable. I think the key is to change your way of life. Cravings may come and go-but the key is to have them not dominate your life.

I went a long time on willpower when I was pregnant and nursing-I was such a bitch and really could not wait for "this" to be over (this meaning having a new beautiful baby....wtf?! insane, you know).

Gotta get a new mindset beingsober. How? Wish I had the magic answer. We are all so different though, and what is the end all for one is bs to another. Follow your heart on this.

Never seen anyone do it on willpower. You are real luck you did not die when you drank while on antibuse. I know of two men in the Navy over in Japan in 1976 who drank while on the stuff....one died and the other came close. I am not surprised that your liver count was up. I am surprised your blood pressure was up.

I am going to make a suggestion to you Besob.....start seeing an alcoholism counselor. Or better yet check into tn alcoholism rehab. If you will not go to Alcoholics Anonymous then do that at least. You need some tools to stay sober and right now you have absolutely none. I think I read somewhere you did not like AA and something about being atheist. You also suffer from being stubborn too. I hope you do not die before you get help. But you have to hit a bottom and you are not there yet. You still want it your way. Well my friend, your way does not work. Try my way for a change. My way, the AA way, has gotten me 27 1/2 years of good, quality sobriety. What has your way gotten you?

If you can die on antabuse, wouldn't a doctor prescribing antabuse to an alcoholic be akin to murder? I drank 2 beers in the past 2 months things could be worse.

I believe in a HP happy2 - I'm not an atheist. I just don't relate to the 12 steps - the 12 steps are spiritual in nature...shoot maybe I'll give those a try too.

Ironic that these past two months are the most sober I've been in decades and my reward is a high liver count.

Bs- you don't need luck. You just need to decide enough is enough. Whatever path you choose, just make sure you give it 100%

Almost all doctors warn that you should not drink on antibuse and they also tell you the results if you do. I was told that if I drank I would get hot flashes and my pulse and heart rate would increase and if I drank enough I could die from a heart attack. I did not drink for the six weeks I was on it.

The program of recovery as laid out in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous does not require you to believe in a God. It does say you need to believe in a power greater than yourself. The Steps are spiritual in nature. I think if you gave them a chance and gave meetings an chance you might be wonderfully surprised. Just try to go with an opened mind.