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finallyawakenow
finallyawakenow

Hi all. Thought I'd check in and share that on my way home in the snow yesterday I had the thought of stopping for a warm up nipper. I had a brief fantasy of having a coffee with Grand Mariner as I was getting out of work a little early and had the afternoon to myself.  Fortunately my love of my sobriety over rode this thought and I know that a brief moment of (maybe) pleasure is no trade for the lifestyle I have now. 
  Drove right by my old package store (where the owner used to keep a case of my favorites) and, instead, went for a long walk on a new trail till dark. Had a wonderful time and was so thankful to be present in the deep quiet of the forest with the snow frosting the trees and making that beautiful sound. Amazing that even after 5 years those old habits still appear. 
  Not a drop will pass my lips again. The promise to myself that is changing my very being. To throw this away on a fleeting bottle? Nope!!!

1is2many
1is2many
The thought will come every once in awhile. For me I need to remember the wonderful times just sitting in the basement drinking in the dark. At the end it was not at all fun but I have a selective memory that wants to remember the rosy times. It was rosy for a few years then it was muddy and bloody and I don’t want to go back. One thing is I would not be able to quit again. I would die a wet death.

Glad you have the resolve to stay quit. That is rare and you should be proud

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Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
There are still times when I think..."Wouldn't it be nice to take a trip into the darkness for one last taste, but then I think about how painful hell can be and It wakes me up from that daydream pretty quickly.

Great to see you both!
lilmissy7
lilmissy7
Thank you for sharing this stuff you guys, it helps me
Big hugs <3 <3 <3
OriginalAA
OriginalAA
You have restraint. You don't act out on every thought that passes through your head. I stay sober because I'm happy, joyous and free. I am always thinking of others and how I can be of service.
fifo
fifo
Old habits is the way drinking tries to trap me again. Always awake for this signals, keeps me also on the way. A good run, walk, stretching, meditation, etc is a sure relief to this thoughts
Shiney
Shiney
Yeh, every now and then I have that little fantasy of having a drink, and it lasts for a couple of seconds, then I remember the shit I got myself into, and my next thought is how far I have come and how much I get to enjoy life now :)
fifo
fifo
yes really !!! my best ally is my past. Remembers me who I was. Always keep that door to past a little bit open, so when I feel "strange" I just have to open the door again, take a look, and realize where I don't want to go again
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