Its called the same thing over and over.
Insanity.
I live it drunk and sober..it sucks...but it is easier sober.

You have a drinking problem. You will feel a lot less hopeless if you face your problem head on and do something to fix it. Usually that means realizing that you need to stop drinking. And then stopping.

if you can;t stop, then you might want to look at getting help -- counseling, AA, or other programs.Using the discussion board here can also help. You ae not alone -- we want you to succeed.

I would lay in the bed and wish I could go back to sleep because I didn't want to get up and face what I had did the night before. Then I would turn around and do the same thing again and again. Only you can say when you are finally fed up and only you can do something to change your situation. I wish you the best

I liked to run face first into proverbial wall after wall. I liked to just beat myself to a pulp. It's called insanity. I finally had enough and stumbled into a 8 pm Sunday aa meeting. I was willing and ready to get sober

1is2many

There is a solution. I really don't miss all the shame and guilt.

I am trying to get into the Smartrecovery site and their daily meetings. Still have not committed to that yet. Monday I will try and make an appointment with a therapist and possibly talk about meds that might help. I have been going for about a week, sometimes two weeks, but I keep reasoning with myself till I decide to drink, and then I'm just my most awful self again and again. It never works when I think it might be ok. I have to remember that, it is never ok, has not been for years.

I find it so ironic that I drive past my shrinks office to get to my aa meeting. I remember all the lies and bs I told my therapist and I totally lied about my drinking. I would write the check each time. 65 bucks an hr. It's ironic that for a dollar, if I feel like donating it ,I am able to openly talk with people that understand my disease.

The only person that gets an Alchie is another Alchie

And the only way I was able to get sober was to have a plan to make it thru the day. I can worry about tommorow later. All I need to get thru is today

Best!

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The highest success rates are people who use individual counseling and then follow-up up with ongoing support, whether it's SMART Recovery, AA, group therapy, or another program.

You are setting yourself up for success -- so make sure you follow through and stick with it.

Yea, I feel that. You know, programs like AA battle that with the same tactic, repetitivity. Go to meetings, over and over, do stepwork, over and over, forgive yourself over and over and over and over. I started going because I figured what the hell, I at least know how to repeat behaviors.