Hi Daisy!! I'm new on the journey, but I have found if the alcohol thought starts creeping in, if I jump on here make a journal entry and read through posts, it strengthens my will. I am so thankful I found this place! Keep your head up, we are only human. *hugs*

Find a program Daisy. It's ok but get on a path. Allen Carr, Smart recovery or AA. Get in a support group.

My default was to guzzle booze. I liked the way it separated me from me. Problem was it was in control. I just couldn't quit on my own. I tried many times
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Wishing for you to be happy, imagine no more chains. Cmon!

Thank you all yet again. It is wonderful to find support.. I agree that I need to get on a path. An alcoholic (recovering) friend has offered to take me to an aa group he goes to. I have yet to investigate the other 2 programs jeffneedshelp mentioned..

I remember when I had quit drinking for 18 months, and at Thanksgiving, with my husband's partying family, the craving broke me, & I started drinking again. I think some of them have addiction issues too; I shouldn't have let it take me down. We just gotta keep on trying. Ms.jiggles is right... jump on Daily Strength & stay strong. I'm going to start doing that too.

Yes. I am reading on Daily Strength in the morning with my coffee and at night before bed to try and keep my head in the game. I'll see you here. :)

Hello Daisy,

That happened to me when I tried to stop drinking. I made a week or ten days the first time before finding a ‘special’ occasion to have a few drinks. I stopped again the following day and redoubled my determination to stay sober. Second time around I lasted less than a week until there was another one of those special occasions. Three days later I was back to drinking continuously and I knew I was beaten. I was in a completely hopeless position and I believed (wrongly) that there was no way to fix it.

I didn’t know at the time that as an alcoholic I had become obsessed with alcohol and would always find a reason to drink. It was only when I could no longer believe my own excuses that I stopped fighting it and went to AA. Embarrassment will keep you sober for a while but once it wears off, the thought of drinking may return. You may need to do more.

I relapsed last night myself - and I had 3 weeks - but I am back up... and I am being accountable here. Good Luck... try and stay strong... walk the path.

Good for you guys for being accountable. I strongly suggest some sort of support through a program for help. I tried my first month quitting on my own and relapsed twice the last one was so bad that I knew I needed help. I am slowly regaining the respect of my loved ones and my own self worth.

Awwww Daisy! Sad to hear it! Let us know what path you choose, it may help someone else! Many read these but few people posts.

Good luck and hang in there!

God Bless

Thats the way it is I know exactly what you are talking about. I will be sober 2 weeks and I will have a craving I will not act on then another day comes and before I know it I am in a store buying beer!! I have been sober 8 days . I pray I stay this way. Everything is so much better when I do. Hang in there you are not alone.

If AA doesn't work for you maybe Smart Recovery will. Its a completely different approach to sobriety. I just found out about it. They have On line as well as walk in meetings

Rua77 and catskyn, you are describing exactly the patterns I have followed. I have certainly been unsuccessful with stopping drinking on my own and I am feeling desperate. I have resisted going to aa, but I am finally realizing I cannot do this alone. I have also ordered Allen Carr's book because the reviews by other drinkers were very encouraging. I think jeffneedshelp is right--I need a support structure. And I need to stay close to this forum to help keep me from giving up. (I have a long term goal to eventually be able to give back some of the help I have already received here.)