Great 38 days!!! remember it is all about you, If whoever is with you is not on the same track, them you might have to do it a lone. But sober alone is better than drunk with someone. Ya know?

hugs welcome and stick to it...do the program which is steps and you will find that life is better...

Keep going to meetings! Hang in there.

Good for you on 38 days. So you know that you can get, and stay, physically sober. What you don't know is if you can do it again. I used to take it for granted I could...until I couldn't and needed to get help to actually get and stay sober. I've met many others in AA who have gone out and not come back, and more still who have gotten and *stayed* sober. So don't take sobriety for granted. Fight for it like its life or death as it is.
You've swaped booze as your god to your BF. Until you can put your sobriety ahead of everything else..it will be precarious.
So yes, go to a meeting. Do you have a sponsor? Are you working the steps? If not, to either of those you know the suggestion right?

Thanks all
Yes I have a sponser & I'm working the steps
I do not take anything for granted.
Just don't know what would happen to me without my bf he got me to AA & is a great support.

I was always told that it is dangerous to make my sobriety contingent on anything or to go down the "if this happens I will drink" way of thinking.

My wife was confused and angry when I 1st started going to AA but after awhile she began to see what a good thing it was. I no longer drink a 12 pack to a case of beer a day. She decided she liked me better sober! Tell him it is about you not him.

As sober time goes on the ups and downs start to level off. They become mere bumps on the path.

Hi Dee, welcome to the group!

I hear what Sticky and Nicky are saying - I would suggest that although you have anxiety about your relationship with your boyfriend, one good thing is he is introduced you to AA.

Whether you split with him or stay with him don't let your emotions over that throw you off course with your recovery. AA will be there for you with love and support in fellowship no matter what. Boyfriends come and go, but sometimes some of us only get a limited number of chances for recovery.