So tonight I pushed myself to go to my home group mtg (tired, lazy, blah blah blah). I got there and asked the speaker who I am friendly with if there were a lot of people there last week, being Halloween and all. I was with my kids and didn't make the mtg. Snarkly, she replied "AA doesn't cancel for Halloween no one drinks on Halloween...ha ha "

She handed me the box of coins and said, you can hand them out tonight. OK' I thought but I don't know my roman numbers. My sponsor was sitting next to me, so i told her. She said she would do it, and then the lady called me out, and said I asked you to do it! So it came for the chips, and she announced to the whole room "now, the person handing out Chips tonight doesn't know her roman numbers, so either make it easy or tell her the symbol". I was mortified. As she laughed. After shares, I had shared something about my sponsor giving me a wake up call about one of my character defects - insecurity. About my hair and how really no one cares what it looks like and how that it was great of my sponsor to say to me, because its true and helpful. She said to me " I do a first step on my hair every morning! Its unmanageable. People do care what your hair looks like! Don't let her lie to you!' My sponsor was dumbfounded.

Now I realize I've spent a whole lot of time typing this out and energy thats better spent elsewhere. Now to figure out my part in this - insecurity.Any thoughts? Pray for me and her? I'm obviously going to talk to my sponsor...ugh. I have feeling this way! Thanks for reading the novel...