Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Feeling pretty good today, but as usual, don't have much to do so I'm on the computer. I'm finding that doing things sober is difficult most of the time for me, because 1) I've never liked doing things alone, 2) I don't have family or friends, only aquaintaces right now, 3) I'm so out of touch with what's going on now, 4) I get frustrated trying to come up with ideas.
I am trying some things with various agency's around here. One I'm doing is about loneliness. I've only been to one class so far, so not sure what to think yet. Another is about housing which I need to stay on top of, because I'm living in a transition house right now and have about 6 months left here before I have to move on.
I'm interested in taking some courses also. One is the red seal preperation at George Brown College. I should have done that about 30 years ago, but drinking and drugs....
I'm also interested in doing an addiction course, but just still thinking about it. I strongly feel that I need to be involved in some way with recovery and helping others. I've worked at a couple of treatment centers years ago when I had some clean time and presently I've gone to Humber College to speak about addiction to students that will be involved in that field.
So in the meantime I'm driving myself nuts just thinking about, ( What I think I should do. ) and basically not doing anything because my head gets too cluttered. I was sanding the stairs here, and I started that about 2 months ago before I ended up in the hospital. I said I would stain them, but I keep procastinating it. I still have my 4th step inventory to do, but I'm not doing much there either. They put me on methadone while I was in the hospital for the pain, but I think it's taking my motivation away.
Anyway, I am staying sober. I'm not sad or depressed or anything, just not having a lot of fun lately. Normally I'm pretty energetic and out going, but getting my ass up to do anything lately seems hard. Does anyone else feel like this, or go through this?
If you were to keep downloading stuff on your computer, not carry out periodic maintenance and ignore suspect software, your machine would eventually become completely cluttered and would stop responding. The same thinking can be applied to the mind as it becomes so full of useless data that there is no longer much space for anything good. By continuing with the Steps, you can de-clutter your mind and become open to new thinking.
When people stop drinking but fail to address the background issues, there is sometimes a state of mind that the Big Book describes as being: “Restless, irritable and discontented”. What I have found is that by trying to do the suggested things, I am at ease with myself. Sometimes I like to b very busy and at other times I am quite happy to do nothing.
As for helping other people, all that I need to do is show up at an AA meeting.
In sobriety I have wanted to be a lawyer, a personal trainer, a rapper, a construction mogul, a therapist, a banker, a movie producer, a writer, an analyst, a politician, and I'll just stop there. My point is my brain can tell me I can be this or that on any given day, especially if I am not going to meetings, talking to other alcoholics, giving back, not willing to act contrary to my thoughts, or praying. Praying has been the most helpful, because it forces me to be on the look out for how God is already doing the best job at doing everything for everyone.
Despite my wordy babble, which I am opened finally to allowing God to put an end to, I have one thing to say, this whole time I thought I needed to do more, and the correct answer is I really needed to do less.
Keep it simple.