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Since Monday night, I have been obsessing over the "option" to drink. I even went so far as to discuss with hubby how I wasn't as bad as some alkies, maybe I could keep drinking once in awhile. Total setup. That convo ended with me asking him whether or not he even wanted me to stop drinking and for the first time ever, he said "Yes. I want you to stop drinking". Setup failed thank God. Miracle 1.
Still obsessing and starting to wonder when hubby might leave town again, I have come down sick. I feel like absolute shit. The last thing I want to do right now is drink. This will give me a little time for the obsession to hopefully pass. Miracle 2.
I pray now I have renewed strength when this fever passes.
I am currently sitting on the couch head throbbing, eyes tearing, with kleenex sticking out of my nostrils because I can stop my nose from running. I am running a fever of almost 102 now. ...BUT THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS BECAUSE I DO NOT DESIRE A DRINK RIGHT NOW.
Still obsessing and starting to wonder when hubby might leave town again, I have come down sick. I feel like absolute shit. The last thing I want to do right now is drink. This will give me a little time for the obsession to hopefully pass. Miracle 2.
I pray now I have renewed strength when this fever passes.
I am currently sitting on the couch head throbbing, eyes tearing, with kleenex sticking out of my nostrils because I can stop my nose from running. I am running a fever of almost 102 now. ...BUT THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS BECAUSE I DO NOT DESIRE A DRINK RIGHT NOW.
peace!
Just kidding, hope you feel better. Your husband sounds like a very caring man, it's great that he was honest with you. Don't fool yourself girly. When you feel better, or even if ya don't feel better but start wanting a drink, call someone or get on here. It helps!
Get well dawg, I was just about to send ya a message saying good thing youre sick, it may give the obession time to pass.
i use to like getting stomach viruses, it would set me up for a diet, but after 3-4 days, i would eat myself out of house and home anyways.
I want to mention that the fact you are discussing this with hubby and not going out and hiding is an AWESOME part of growth on your part.
PEACE, MARK
I totally agree with your post, except for the heading. It should read, "My (remove little) Miracles." You see, the heading is wrong for two reasons:
1.) God doesn't perform small miracles...just infinite miracles.
2.) Anything that keeps the booze outta' ya' is an infinite miracle; NOT a little miracle.
We addicts are masters of understatement. Anything that detracts from the power of God and the fact that you are still sober is a SEVERE understatement; that is, dead wrong.
Good going on staying sober! I hope you feel better.
Wayne-