I've been drinking for a long time but on and off, I binge drank alot and that was when i seemed to have problems,it was my way of coping, I haven't drank since Dec 20 and I've been in rehab since Jan 10, I lost everything and was at the lowest point of my life before I came here,  I almost shot myself as I stared down the barrel for 4hrs and it was at that point I cried for help, I lost my family and was focused on that so I wasn't focused on me, now 3 weeks in and 3 weeks to go, I'm taking care of me, my girl wants to be my friend and I'm okay with that as at first I was hurt , lonely and wanted her support, and I realize she is here for support and that good enough right now, don't know what the future holds but will remain hopefully that I win in the end, I've been focused on me and have planned my after cate from here and it all feel good as I've done this alone physically,  but her on this site I made a outlet of Frieda who have made an everlasting impression me as they are both positive to me and that's what I needed so thanks for the support as I couldn't have done it with out you guys