sounds familiar....you should restart sobriety and keep it this time....good luck...hugs

Don't be embarrassed! It happened, it's over and you can't change it. Just try your best to move forward and not make the same mistakes. People are more forgiving than we give them credit for sometimes. I feel awful when I drink, but I drink in order to not deal with things I need to deal with. Focus on trying to deal with life's difficulties without alcohol! Face those moms with your head held high...and remember the present is a gift.

Hati, know where you're coming from. Been there, done it, tooo many times. We might all want to hear a better answer, but I believe the only thing we can do is get back up, and keep on trying.

For me, alcohol and self control are mutually exclusive. I was always safer drinking alone. It was almost impossible to for me to show up somewhere and not make a complete ass of myself. Today
I find it so much easier to remember the fun I had the day before and not have to call someone to find out who I hurt. Sobriety will probably be the gentler of burdens for you. Like us, alcohol doesn't seem to sit well...

Hugs,
Dennis

Thankyou so much your support is invaluable. I know the only way is to get sober again. Its just so damn hard!! x

Once you get past the awful ,,,regroup and refocus,,you can do this

First, let me congratulate you on the 5 months you were able to put together, that's an accomplishment to be proud of and nothing can take that away from you. Embarrassment and shame when we make a mistake is a natural reaction. Thankfully, the consequences of your drinking again weren't far worse and more difficult to repair.

Although life can be very uncomfortable and seemingly unbearable without drinking the question really is, are we better able to manage those times in our lives that are seemingly unbearable and get to the other side with or without alcohol?

At times I suffer from unrealistic expectations about not drinking in that I think life is going to be a bowl of cherries because I don't drink. What not drinking allows me to do is gain a better perspective and what to do to get through the pain inherent in life and get to the other side. Sometimes the only answer is to let time pass and work its wonderful magic of healing. Good times and bad times come and go with or with out my cooperation...I choose not to drink because I don't want to cooperate in creating more bad times...

I hear ya girl. Lord knows I've been there before. The important thing though is that you realize what you have done and it's not too late to start again. Just because you messed up doesn't mean you have to keep letting it spiral out of control. Just like someone else said, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back to sobriety. You've proven that you can do it. 5 months is a long time & you should be proud of that. Like all of us on here, we know we can't control it. No matter how many times we try to tell ourselves we can, the reality is we can't. Wouldn't you much rather be sober & never have to feel that shame & embarrassment ever again?

Hey one day at a time, right.
All the best to you
Hugs

Thankyou everyone I have just completed my first day back sober and feel much better about myself already. The problem was after 5 months sober I kind of forgot I ever had a problem and thought I could drink occasionally. That was a month ago and Ive been drunk every day since

I have done this over and over. Hold your head high and keep moving forward. Lets get sober together