Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
where to start..... Well I'm 29 and I've been drinking for 12 years the past 2 1/2 more then ever. I told myself many times I was fine. I wasn't hurting anyone and hey I got a lot done around my house. I would make deals with my husband only on the weekend but I couldn't even follow through. I've recently found myself saying ok not today... And then I still do. I don't have a cut off anymore. I worry about how much I drink at one time. I worry about my relationships with my family. I worry about my health and if I will live to see my son graduate or get married. My husbands sick of it I've always had a reason why I was drinking to explain to someone. I've even went as far as hiding it from my husband but he always knows. I've been sober for 3 days as of today. I'm really bloated not sure what that's about. I felt sick the first 48 hours but something great happened this morning. I woke up like I always do but I normally feel very sleepy and hung over. Not today this morning I got up made breakfast for my husband before work like I used to cleaned the house up got the kids on the bus and went to work. A normal morning but without the sickness and I felt so proud! It's hard at night that's when I would drink once the kids layed down that was my time. However I would drink half a bottle of vodka in less then an hour like it was going somewhere. Idk I just pray I can do this I want to be better. My husbands always saying I don't want to kiss someone who always smells like alcohol and I can't blame him. I don't know how it all got so messed up. How I lost control over myself. There's a lot more to my story but that's all I'll put for now. If anyone's still reading thanks so much!
You have made a good start by recognising that drinking has become a problem. I would urge you to take it a step further now and to learn more about the exact nature of that problem.
It may be that you will have to give up alcohol completely. If that is the case, sometimes all it takes is to make a decision not to drink and to stick to it but more often than not, someone who has been drinking in the way that you have described will find it challenging and may need outside help. Alcoholics Anonymous is a good place to find that help.
Take a look at the video at the link below.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMC62Y_5dyE
Thank u I thought if I can't go to meetings and make time I could write and talk here. It's a start and u have to start somewhere. This is my new start I just want to find other ways to deal with this. I know what I'm doing isn't ok. I guess only u can' come to that conclusion before u change.
Thank u so much for your advice! I'll do my best to try to find time.