Glad you found a meeting. Remember each one has their own vibe so if you don't like the one you go to keep trying! Hang in there

Hello Daisy,

Your struggles will have been worth it if it prompts you to seek help.

“Living Sober” is a great little book that is full of useful tips that will allow you to cope in the short term. However, it does not deal with the root causes of alcoholism or outline in detail a method of recovery as the Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous) does.

The starting point of recovery for an alcoholic is an acceptance that he or she cannot drink safely. As you have seen, being determined to quit is not always enough and very often, more is required. My suggestion to you is to put sobriety above everything else at this time even if it means temporarily neglecting some other things. Recovery demands commitment and an open mind so don’t rule anything out.

I would suggest committing to very many AA meetings each week for the next three months. Try different meetings and get to know other members, especially other female members. You will soon see that there are winners in the game, people who are sober for a long time and happy with sobriety and I would suggest sticking with those people. You will probably hear many things that you disagree with and that is where an open mind is important. You will also hear plenty of rubbish and stuff that is just not true and it takes a while to be able to seperate the wheat from the chaff. Try to become involved in small ways, maybe by helping out at meetings or talking to other new people. There are no rules or ‘musts’ in AA but if you force yourself to get out of the comfort zone and speak at meetings you will find that it gets a lot easier.

You are now at a crossroads. One path leads to continued misery and struggle and the other leads to unbelievable freedom. Choose wisely and good luck.

Hang in there. The best thing is that you want to quit. A meeting should help. Not all meetings are amazing the first time. So definitely give it a few chances. You'll notice different people show up on different days or even week to week. The vibe can change drastically.

I know how you feel. Felt that way for years. ugh. I re read some of my journal posts here and almost don't remember it -- but then am reminded. It was hellish.
I needed many meetings. One day for the first few years. I needed them, then wnated to go to them. I still want to but my life is so rich and full now that I forget how desperate it can be and will be if I pick up. THANK you for reminding me. I need to be reminded because like most all alcholics, we slowly convince ourslelves its not that bad. YET. Till yet comes and we lower the bar again. Anyway hang in there. We do and can and WILL recover.

You can do this , one minute at a time if needed ,,, keep your chin up , praying for you !

Thank you for posting. I feel like I'm in the same hell right now. Let me know how your AA meeting went.

It is possible. What time is the meeting tomorrow. None today?
1-2

Daisy & Lisa, We are pulling for you & we're here for you, and we are all in this together. Find strategies that work for you. Hang in there with us

How was the meeting.

It's this afternoon. I'll check in afterward.

Hold on... just keep trying.

I found hope for the first time when I went, I saw others that had recovered and were actually willing to ask about me and how I was feeling. That was the watershed moment that I realized it was possible to plug the jug. Willingness is the beginning of the road to recovery.
1-2

We all need an outlet for our struggles and AA is a great outlet. AA saved my life and brought me a happiness, I never thought possible!

God Bless