How was the AA meeting?
your post reminds me of how I thought life had to be.
I too had a relatively happy family life, a big successful career, worked out daily, had a bucket load of "friends," and an active social life. But...my life really revolved around my bottle of wine at the end of every day. I'd wake up feeling hung over, sick, and it got worse and worse. I tried to stop on my own, I tried therapy (lied to my therapist) tried bikram yoga, self help, on and on for a few years...
Finally I went to AA desperate and pretty sure it wasnt going to "work." I havent had a drink since and my life has changed in ways I cant begin to express in a post on a forum.

I applaud your courage. The despair I felt when I thought I have to give up drinking alcohol and all the fun it brought to my life was enough to keep me from staying sober. That despair, that thinking was a lie I told myself. That was my lie, yours is different but it's all the same. The alcohol is a craving, an addiction and the body is allergic to the substance in so that it needs it and in that you must fulfill that need as it is powerful. The brain then won't shut off when you have just one, it tells all cells that it needs more. I have 30 years now in AA, however I spent 8 years in relapse with my lie. Meetings for me make it, if there are more than one meeting go to that as well, you will find your home group. It says in the Big Book, "....what replaces alcohol?" The answer is The Fellowship, you will not be lonely, there awaits a wealth of friends and no more aloneness. Good luck.

Give AA a try. If you find that it is of no help, try something different. What works for one may not work for another. AA was of no help for me. I just use DS.

All that good exercise is wasted if you 8-10 doses of empty calories into your body.

Never waisted, thanks for sharing

I hear you! I am a high functioning alcoholic and that makes it difficult to admit that there is something wrong with this picture and life should be more than working and isolating yourself to drink. There is more out there, I promise!

Hello, give AA a try. I am on day one all over again after a long time sober. About to post for the first time after this response. AA has helped me in the past and I hope it will help me again. Also going to check in here a bit to be held accountable, whether others read or not. I agree with Kateremade about the high functioning alcoholic life, how it makes it hard to admit you have a problem, but you do. Having that audience is good, though, so that you're held accountable. check in here, go to AA, get a sponsor. Best of luck and thanks for sharing.

Hello, I drank Saturday and Sunday, I did go to two AA meetings and plan to continue going. I drank all the booze last night and today the conditions are good to stay sober. I need to break off the daily drinking routine. I noticed that if I eat a good meal my cravings for alcohol diminish greatly, so my goal for today is not to buy any liquor, go to a Meeting eat early in the evening and not drink no matter what. Thank you for sharing Christiney and Kateremade