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Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Here I am yet again

maeby
maeby

hi everyone, I’m new to the site. It’s 5 am and I’ve been up for 2 hours because I woke up from my drunken slumber because I almost had to vomit. I drank about a bottle of wine last night. I have had issues from drinking in the past (I’m 23, almost 24 and have two expunged drunk in public arrests under my belt). It’s hurt myself and my relationships too. I’ve been drinking since I was 13. Amount and intensity has fluctuated, but right now it seems that I’m in taking a lot on the weekends. This is bad for me in all ways I think, but mostly for my mental and physical health. I have gerd and ignore the fact that alcohol is not helping me heal myself. I just want to party  and have fun I guess. I have pressure from my gerd right now because of the wine and the drunk food I ate. I was a former bulimic for many years so that’s where the gerd came from. I’m so fucking done with this shit :(. I just want to be that person who can say “this is bad for me, I’m done.” I feel so bad for my boyfriend who does nothing but support me. He doesn’t deserve this. I don’t either. Things in my life are good right now, I don’t want to fuck them up. I’m on a slippery slope and just want to be healthy and happy. 

stepone
stepone
Hi Maeby. I had sworn off alcohol thousands of times. Usually at 5:00 am with a hangover. Each time I'd have a drink in my hand by 5:00 pm. This is proof that I am powerless over alcohol no matter how sincere I am about quitting, because I was always sincere about quitting and got drunk again. It also proved that my thoughts and feelings and desires aren't enough to get me sober. I needed to DO something. I made the hardest decision in my life to leave my wife with our newborn and went to treatment. If you're an alcoholic like me, you need help. Maybe AA will work for you. Maybe you only need DS. I need it all. I've got sometime under my belt now and my life is good. Not easy, but good. I still remember that my sobriety, spiritual condition, quality of life are dependent on my ACTIONS. My advice.........DO something. If nothing changes nothing changes.
Kevin105
Kevin105
yeah, some good wisdom from stepone. I'd also echo that until I actually took action, made a personal commitment, nothing got done when the hangover wore off. AA has a proven program that worked for me and millions of others. what do you have to lose, except your hangovers and shame? wishing you the best!
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
My neighbor had gerd very bad also but he doesn't anymore. He said he mixes a teaspoon of baking soda with a glass of water every night and drinks it before he goes to bed. He swears by it!

Reading your post reminded me of my drinking days also and it also reminded me of how much my drinking tortured the ones I loved the most. I was ready and willing to do whatever it took to stay sober because I never, ever want to hurt them again!

God Bless
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
Welcome. Keep coming back. There’s a good community here.
Betteauroan
Betteauroan
All good advice above. AA is what it took for me to finally get some time sober under my belt. Nothing else worked.
seaQ
seaQ
Hopefully your willpower can match your good attitude. How are things going? I always feel like weakness wins when I think I want to drink, and I always want to stay strong and put health and happiness on top.
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