My friend, you need a support network! You do this because, like me you are an ALCOHOLIC. It really need not be a burden once you accept that you simply do not drink alcohol again. We have an allergy, alcohol does all sorts of things to our brains and body's. Once it is out of out systems, believe me, we act like any other human being.

No matter what brought you to this stage in your life, you are what you are (an alcoholic) put down the booze, get support and get YOU back again. Sobriety feels like being the survivor of a ship wreck, just that the elation of having survived, stays with us each and every day!

Get what I now have, put the drink down and start living!

God bless

Phil

I just stopped drinking a few weeks ago and it was because I had a really bad night. I was so drunk the people at the train station wouldn't let me board the train and it's a 2 hour journey home. I got such a fright I told my partner everything and he has been really supportive. I thought I'd share the embarrassing story to show I understand! But really the important thing is the support. You need people around you who can help, even if it's just to listen to you when you feel like a drink. (Or forcibly stop you from leavoing the house to go to the nearest off-license!) Good luck.

I was on my way to Vegas from San Jose. Had been drinking Bacardi Rum all day (it was 95 degrees), got to the airport, ordered two triple shots more of rum, and next thing I remember is waking up in the emergency room with wires and shit all over me. Had this nurse come in and tell me, "Get up! We need this bed for someone that's really sick!"

I probably should've quit drinking then but didn't. Point is we know we have a problem but it isn't until we seriously hit bottom that we start asking for help.

It keeps happening because are an alcoholic. Go to meetings and work the steps. It will get better but you have to stay away from the first drink. You won't do that until you have had enough and are ready.

Forgive yourself! You are human just like my husband! Find a great support group. Talk to your doctor. Find an AA group and go, talk to others! Talk to others, don't keep it inside. Break from others that arent' supportive and don't want to be part of your recovery! You are not bad or evil you are sick. BE safe and love your self!

I can really relate. I also become someone I do not recognise when I drink, its become particulary dangerous to go out when I drink as my boundaries slip away. I had a similar night a week ago and have not drank since.
The only way to overcome this is staying abstinant. I have just begun taking campral for the cravings and I'm ready to commit to them for a year. I already am feeling better. So nice to have a clear head and a vison for my future.. You can take that step.

I too remember those days. That is one of the things that keep me sober today. I don't want to forget how terrible I always felt once I got drunk and couldn't remember what I had done due to a blackout. Someone that had some time in sorbiety kept telling me I didn't have to live like that anymore. At first I could not imagine living sober. But once I got a day, the day turned into a week and a week turned into a month. But I could have only done it one day at a time. That is the philosopy that saved my life and the fellowship. Try going to a meeting. You will find that support network that was suggested earlier. I was told that life is worth living. I do agree that even my worst sober day is better than any day I had while drinking. Keep your head up. and easy does it.

Get back up on the saddle and try again. "Courage is bein' scared to death and saddlin' up anyway." (John Wayne)

F.R.O.G.

Thank you all for your advice.I do need to find a support group, or go to a meeting. Even though i know what i need to do, i can't seem to accept that i am an alcoholic. Its hard for me to even say it.I must be in denial or something. But for today i will not drink, and that is enough.Right?

None of the 12 steps require or recommend that we admit to being alcoholic; instead, we admit we are powerless over alcohol and our lives have begun to spin out of control. Our powerlesness begins with the fact our bodies do not process alcohol the way the majority of the population does. It is much the same as how a diabetic's body does not process sugar in the "normal" manner. Or how a free bleeder's blood will not clot. It sucks, but there it is. Bottom line, we can't cure it; but we CAN control it by NOT taking the cork out of the bottle. And it's a hell of a lot easier than injecting insulin 3 or 4 times a day, or having to race to the hospital if you cut yourself on a kitchen knife. Good luck. We're praying for you.

Not putting that alcohol in you body may be enough today. That is called sorbiety. Working the 12 steps and try to live them along with sorbiety is called "recovery". That ,my dear, is a beautiful thing.

B CUZ alcoholics CANT stop. THATS THE THING. U NEED HELP, NOW NOT LATER. PLZ GET IT!

Just because you did this last night doesn't mean you are doomed to repeat it. Use the memory of the feelings to inspire yourself to never want to feel that way again. Weigh the costs and the benefits of the drink before you pick up the first one. Is the momentary pleasure worth the subsequent pain?

Surround yourself with support rather than drinking buddies. It's really hard, but try to identify the best person to whom you can confide that alcohol is causing problems in your life and you need help. It is amazing what verbalizing to that first person can do to help.

Joys shared are multiplied. Concerns shared are divided.

Good luck!