Alcoholism Support Group
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Mom had a massive heart attack yesterday. I definitely could use a drink. but I don't want one. uhmp. What a surprise there. I totally know THAT would really screw my already crazy topsy, turvy, upside -down world and send me into the abyss of holy shit. God,...now I truly know why Nanny used to say "don't ask - what else could possibly go Wrong" cuz it will. I know bad things happen to good people and vica versa. Yeah, deep inside - i know this. But on the flip side i seriously gotta wonder WTF?
I'm not like devastated, or broke-up, or sad. Hell -mom is 72 and is still trying to recover from broncitis (is that even spelled right) . We don't have any unfinished business. i give her flowers to brighten her (and my) day. We spend a LOT of time together. She helps me, I help her. I'm just ... and suddenly it occurs to me. i'm helpless. in this situation- I am totally helpless. Whether she lives or dies is not in my hands. this is something i can not fix. I can wash dishes. i can change diapers. i can take children to work or school. i can do the groceries, cook dinner, wash laundry.... refrain from drinking. But i - me- can not fix this problem. Only time and God or the powers that be can change this scenerio. I do feel as if someone is trying to step on my last nerve. Or pushing the damn button that should be left the hell alone. Argh! And i'm not even a damn pirate ! wth... just don't ask what else can go wrong. I just needed another venting session.
I'm not like devastated, or broke-up, or sad. Hell -mom is 72 and is still trying to recover from broncitis (is that even spelled right) . We don't have any unfinished business. i give her flowers to brighten her (and my) day. We spend a LOT of time together. She helps me, I help her. I'm just ... and suddenly it occurs to me. i'm helpless. in this situation- I am totally helpless. Whether she lives or dies is not in my hands. this is something i can not fix. I can wash dishes. i can change diapers. i can take children to work or school. i can do the groceries, cook dinner, wash laundry.... refrain from drinking. But i - me- can not fix this problem. Only time and God or the powers that be can change this scenerio. I do feel as if someone is trying to step on my last nerve. Or pushing the damn button that should be left the hell alone. Argh! And i'm not even a damn pirate ! wth... just don't ask what else can go wrong. I just needed another venting session.
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Dick Van Dyke’s path to sobriety was a turning point in his life and career. Here’s what happened:How He Got SoberStruggles and Realization: Van Dyke began drinking as a teenager, largely to cope with shyness and social anxiety. Alcohol made him feel more comfortable in social settings, but over time, his drinking spiraled out of control. By his mid-40s, he recognized that he had an addictive...
I will keep you and your Mom in my prayers. It's very good that you recognize that you can't fix this - it's very frustrating trying to fix something we're powerless over.
But wow, look at all the things you CAN do! Mom is so fortunate to have you as her daughter.
I've found citing the fruits of the spirit over and over until they return to me very helpful in stressful situations: Peace, love, joy, goodness, gentleness, kindness, faithfulness, patience, and self-control.
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the last time I really felt like drinking was a few months ago. My old cat had taken a turn for the worse, and I had her at the vet's. I knew it was probably going to be 'her time', and I was terribly distressed. I thought of a drink or two, but it's never a drink or two for me. I never WANT one or two, I always wants lots.
I am glad you are there for her and will continue to be. Very important that you stay sober through this. If things stay rough or get rougher, please keep posting or send me a personal message, I have been where you are now.
I wish you and your mother the best :)
My god mother says don't borrow trouble. She said this even when her only son committed suicide. Another version of don't ask what else can go wrong. Anything and everything or nothing.....but to your point we arent in control.
Its so hard to let go. I know it is for me. But try. I love LR33's suggestion of citing the gifts of spiritual life....peace, love, joy, goodness, patience......
put your troubles into a god box. Meditate on what you are actually feeling. And breathe. It will be OK.