You are not alone. I too was having a tough day of it today. Something about the cold and dark days really makes me not feel right. And stress over the upcoming holidays is a danger time. But we can get thru it cmon!
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Hello Dragonfly1969,

It is natural to get difficult days but they will pass and the sun will shine again. Although it is best to live in the present rather than thinking back or worrying about the future, it is still helpful to visualise what your life could be like a little bit down the road. Imagine being free from all thoughts of drinking and having a means of dealing with life’s challenges no matter how difficult they may be - that is what you can have if you stick to your present course. Look around at other people who have the sort of sobriety that you would like to have and remember that they were once where you are now.

Reading the Big Book is a great idea and you can get much more from it if you listen to the two guys at the link below:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phHXCn25MmY

Thank you very much pj54. I will check that link out later today. And 1is2many we need to stick together and hold each other up. Hope your day today is blessed and everyone who is fighting addiction.

I like reading the stories of the big book. I dog-ear every page where I say - "aha that describes me." Then I flip around and pick up the book and find random affirmations of my life in how it used to be.

I to struggle everyday.. I have been clean for about 8 months now! I guess it does gets easier everyday But I still have my days.. we can do this threw The Big Book our Higher Power and communication.. ..

Thank you so much. I find that my patience with everyday people who are in my life is very short. I'm working on it though and am praying for all of us.

Dragonfly1969,
I am was so proud of you when I read your post. You were having a bad day but you were willing to fight and reach out to others on here. That takes guts.
Keep going girl and I am praying for you. We are all in this together.

Thank you so much lessonoflove. I bought myself a new cooking utensil to celebrate. I figure all the money I'm saving not buying alcohol I can spoil myself. This site is so great I love it.