My daughter was in a car accident last week and I saw it happen. I was outside and she was just down the road. A truck rear ended her doing around 75-80mph. I had to run to the scene to even find out of she was ok. She is going to be ok and I know that but it is the sounds of the wheels locking and the sound of the impact and what I saw that keeps playing over and over in my head. I am not dealing with this well at all and I keep having the thoughts that I want to drink and keep on drinking just to get a break from this. I can't sleep because of nightmares and when I am awake that keeps playing over and over again. I am a bundle of nerves and I just need some relief. I have not taken a drink yet but it is on my mind a lot. I feel like I am 'white-knuckling' here and just barely getting through my days and nights without picking back up and getting drunk. I have talked to my sponsor and am using the tools that I have to help but I am not really sure what else to do. Thanks for letting me vent.
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