Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Hello there.
i have read so much in here the last week or so and heading your journeys has given me strength.
i have been struggling with a growing unhealthy relationship for years. Truth be told, since I was a boy. I come from a long line of alcoholics. I didn’t Reina until my late twenties due to pre emptied concens.
but here I am at 39 either an alcoholic or as close as someone can be.
i am self employed and make my own hours and often have large sums of disposable cash. Also often broke too. I have gone on month long binges then gone dry for months at a time. I’m pretty sure I have a mild ocd disorder.
my drinking has been getting more and more out of control. I finally put myself in a stupid situation and was unfaithful to my wife and verbally abusive to my son.
I was a beast and a monster.
i do not intend to ever drink again.
i can easily go for months without s drink. Probably longer. But it is past that point that I am afraid.
my wife says I will never see her again if I drink. That is both the biggest reason I have to never drink again, but I also sense it may end up being my weakness.
i want to be the best version of myself. I never want to let her down. The last time I drank was the worst day of my life.
I only need not drink today will be my mantra. I feel no temptation currently, but I know I will.
i have joined the secular online society. Though I absolutely respect AA’s work, I am a unbeliever. I do not feel I will benefit from the higher power aspects.
but I am willing to change my mind. In honesty I am willing to change everything and be better.
thankyou for all your posts and I thank you for and advice you may offer
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
I am new to this group but I can empathize with your struggles. The worst part of drinking is waking up the next day with that suffocating guilt. The last time I had a drink was 7 years ago. I was arrested for an OVI and child endangerment. My daughter was 6 at the time. I then abused pain pills, but that is a whole different story. I have suffered for years from anxiety and depression. I loved to self medicate. My husband eventually threw me out of the house and went to an attorney. A long and ugly story short, I had to become sober for myself. I could not do it for anyone else. I cried excessively and lived at a sober house for almost 9 months. I left everyone else behind to work on me first. Through help including group therapy, advice, meetings, and an enormous amount of work, I started to heal. Today, I am sober for over 5.5 years and still married! My daughter is doing amazing. I am a senior in college (at the age of 46) so that I can help others. You can do this, you truly can. Search deeply for your demons and forgive yourself. You are worthy of love and a better future. It's not easy, but I see life from a whole new perspective and am sincerely happier than I have ever been. Life still throws out challenges, yet I always persevere. It does help to believe in something. That something cannot be created nor destroyed by you. Pick something and start trudging through the pain.
And well done yourself. You should be proud
When I stopped drinking 30 months ago I was in a fragile place physically and emotionally. I felt that fear of disappointing my wife and the uneasiness of change in our relationship. However as the sober months added up I began to find my inner strength that slowly is freeing me of the need for the ‘safe’ life.
I always had the illusion that I was mature. Now I see that I have work to do on that front and voila, a mature attitude is born. Facing our fears and accepting our lives just the way they are is liberating. You don’t have to be a better you, just be an honest you and the rest will follow.
~~~Peace~~~
There are other philosophies out there other that AA, do a google search. I found www.rational.org and learned about AVRT, or addictive voice recognition technique. You can also go see videos on it on YouTube.com,
You don’t have to believe you have a disease, are powerless, and need to hand your will over to God or a group of people.
You are powerful, don’t ever forget it.
Choose Freedom, Chose Never Again!
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