Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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confusedmoma 04/21/2008

Today someone made a casual remark about something i once did during my worst drinking days and i almost had a panic attack!!When i start thinking of all the things i've said and done when i was blacked out, it scares me! I still feel mortified when i am reminded of these mistakes, and it is something i am terrified to explore. I am still so worried about the fact that i've done so much i am not even aware of, and even more terrified that somewhere along the road i will be called on my behaviors. The guilt, shame and humiliation are feelings i have stuffed down and i don't feel strong enough to let them out... any suggestions on how to let go??

deleted_user 04/21/2008

OMG! Be KIND to yourself. Best of all, everybody SURVIVED long enough to be ashamed. That's a good thing - - yes?

deleted_user 04/22/2008

I would not give it a second thought, that was back then, 5 months ago..Have a look on the posts here, we had one "the worst thing you did drunk"..in short it made us all think My God, did I really...anf laugh about it..

You had an illness that for today you do not have...

No point worrying about yesyerday, no point worrying about tomorrow..just focus on today..

deleted_user 04/22/2008

I have more embarassing mistakes that I can count. Also, I am a blackout drinker so I have done a lot of foolish, stupid, regrettable things that I cannot even remember - but I too get the comments and casual remarks. I don't like it when people bring that stuff up. Its not funny to me, and I feel like its totally uncool of these people to be pointing out my past errors related to a really serious disease. Of course there are a lot of the things I can laugh about, yes, but really when I think of the big picture its just not funny anymore. I don't really have any advice as to how to "get over it". I suppose you have to just be sober, be strong, hold your head high, and eventually people will move on from the topic of what we drunks used to be like. Good luck in sobriety. - piper

deleted_user 04/22/2008

I relate to what your saying. Its hard to forgive yourself for what you know you did and be fearful of what you may have done. You need to forgive yourself in order to let go. Can't say I've gotten there yet, but I hope you can. Good luck.

deleted_user 04/22/2008

That is what the 4th step of AA is for!!

deleted_user 04/23/2008

that's why god sent us the 12 steps to get rid of all that guilt,humilitation,shame. Be good to yourself,blackouts are scary, anything can happen. Do yourself a favor and stay sober, blackouts will happen again.When you are blacked out you have no control over what you do, that's why they are dangerous.

deleted_user 04/23/2008

The 12 Steps is not for everyone, they worked for me.I had suicidal tendencies for a number of years and once I did the 12 steps all my depression and guilt and shame ect was dealt with.

Today I have no negative feelings or thoughts,no fear,no remorse,and if I do thanks to the 12 steps I can deal with them in a mature fashion, now that is saying something.Steps 4 and 5 the greatest thing I ever did.

Know you are a worthy person and deserve to be loved and forgiven.

mj

deleted_user 04/23/2008

sweety stop judging urselkf we not perfect honey only person can judge us is god and i be;ieve he has forgive us for ouir wrings xxx

deleted_user 04/25/2008

I have often wondered how many people in prison don't remember the event that got them there?
So if you still draw breath and are not in prison, why gamble any further?
Put down the drink!
You do have that choice, and there is plenty of help to do it!

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