Today someone made a casual remark about something i once did during my worst drinking days and i almost had a panic attack!!When i start thinking of all the things i've said and done when i was blacked out, it scares me! I still feel mortified when i am reminded of these mistakes, and it is something i am terrified to explore. I am still so worried about the fact that i've done so much i am not even aware of, and even more terrified that somewhere along the road i will be called on my behaviors. The guilt, shame and humiliation are feelings i have stuffed down and i don't feel strong enough to let them out... any suggestions on how to let go??
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