the delusion you can drink like a normal drinker needs to be smashed....I know you think they are having fun but the memory you have of fun should be superseded by the puking and other problems alcohol created for you....

This was me. However, I have an advantage, as I work in a fast food/convenience store type business, which is often the drunks last stop of the night. Over the last several months, we've had to make reports to the police about people who got too drunk, and decided that was the time to follow their "enemies" into our store and try to deal with it. And I am not exaggerating with the several part. I've also had to clean up liquor bottles that someone was too afraid to leave in their vehicle, and that fell and broke all over the bathroom floor. I can no longer be jealous of this lifestyle. It saddens me, and it is insane. I walk by the bar, see the exact same vehicles parked there every night, and no I do not miss that place.

That's a very common ego trap! You see, you associate booze with having a good time. It's just an untrue, past belief that you need to let go. You can have a good time without the booze, and have just as much fun as the drunks, but without the hangover.

For me it’s like going out to dinner with someone after I was at an all you can eat buffet an hour before.
I consumed my lifetime quota and have no appetite for more. To which I’m very grateful.

I’m glad you reached out, no matter what you’re feeling I think it shows that in your heart you want to stay and be healthy & that’s great :)

I hope you can do something nice for yourself just for the heck of it, whatever that is, get yourself a milkshake, hot cuppa tea or coffee, look at a sunset, watch a funny movie ect. (whatever you actually feel in place of any of my ideas if mine were silly to you lol)

Either way I’m proud of you friend, & for reaching out & letting others who may be too afraid to post know that they’re not alone. & I hope you know you’re not alone too

Big hugs <3 <3 <3

What a sweet, genuine reply lilmiss. Ya 1is2, what she said:)

Went to a great speaker meeting tonite. Glad I don’t have to worry about boozing this we. Thanks crew , keep on the path. Cmon

yeh, I used to have that fomo in my early sobriety, who would I be without alcohol? how would I have confidence?
I now realise it was up to me to love myself and the alcohol was just a mask - when I have been around drunk people since being sober, their faces change and they talk alot and repeat themselves & can be pretty annoying :), nup, I choose sobriety !!!

You're 10 years sober and you can't go to a party and have fun? Because someone is drinking around you? That's not the AA that I was taught.