The point is you recognize you have a problem and want to make a change. It took me four years to completely get on the road to recovery. I attended meetings, went cold turkey, etc. It took me many downfalls to finally say enough is enough and I surrendered. Only you know when the time is to give it up completely and start working on recovery. It is definitely the hardest thing to do and even more so to stay sober and start working on YOU. For me, that was the scariest thing to do, self reflection. I kind of knew I was a mess but I wasn't ready to dig down deep and find out how bad I was. All I can say is it takes a lot of courage and faith to go down that road of recovery. I finally did on August 5, 2013. Relapsed twice and my last drink was January 2014. I've made it a year and I've taken some huge steps at self development in the process. Each day I'm a work in progress. I will always be an alcoholic, the point is I have to manage it to where it no longer takes me down to hell again. That means never picking up, changing my attitude and thinking and learning a new lifestyle. I can say I am much happier, debt free, stable, healthier and living without shame and guilt. So don't beat yourself up too much. We all relapse, we all have the desire to quit. Just gotta have faith that you can do it. I don't know how spiritual you are but I'm going to say this anyway: we are not in total control of our lives. There is something greater, bigger than us that can help us, when we are ready. We cannot FIX or heal ourselves. We gotta lean on our Creator most of all.

You can do this! Pick yourself up and give it a shot again to recover. Never give up Hope. Nobody can make you quit or help you quit. You alone and Creator can make this happen for you. Stay up!

thank you for the great words, i know i can do it this time and im gonna take it day by bay and make it work.
thank you

What I have recently learned is that alcohol is poison and there are NO benifits from drinking. Do not envy people that drink now that you stopped. You are not losing anything by giving up alcohol. You need to change the way you think.

I too would quit, many,many times. See the trick is to stay quit. It took going to a group of other Alchies and learning the how's and whys

I hope you find the path

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Surrendering and truly wanting sobriety more than anything are powerful tools.
I agree; when you feel like envying those can "can" drink, remember that drinking is poison, cut and dry and no one really benefits.
If I were on the other end, I would envy and admire the people who never drink. I am happily one of those people now.

Day 1 is a big accomplishment.keep going!!