Hi, I'm 2 and 1/2 years sober. I've worked a good program but the last year I moved when I was pregnant and now my baby is 7 months old. I have not yet become "connected" with AA in my new area and still use my old sponsor an hour away. With the baby, I only get to one or two meetings a week. I know more meetings would help, but my problem is feeling a void in my life that I can't seem to fill. I should be totally grateful - I have so much - sobriety, a beautiful daughter, supportive family and fiance... - so why do I still feel this void that I want to fill with something, anything - food, shopping, even pills if I didn't know any better. I want more. - of anything - just more. I AM grateful, I just can't shake this feeling.
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