Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

I cannot tell you what to do but in my case I had to make big changes to my way of thinking in order to have a good chance at sobriety. Reading inspirational books, posting on DS had I been aware of it at the time and even going to many AA meetings would all be helpful but those things alone would not change my outlook on life. For that I had to enlist the help of someone who had been there already (a sponsor) and go through those Twelve Steps.
Maybe the same thing would work for you.
It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, farhbetter rest that I go to than I have ever known. Rest up and retain yurn Truth and move On ...Next stop floor1!!!:)))
Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities
Short answer: It's an addiction.
Long answer: Don't try to think about it rationally. There aren't any logical and rational answers. And your answers are not the same for someone else. You need to find your own. We can point you in the right direction, but in the end, it is YOU, and only YOU who will find your truth.
Addictions come in all sizes and shapes. And generally speaking they all relate to some underlying emotional stress. Until or unless you deal with the underlying emotional issue(s) you are facing, alcohol will always have a pull on you.
Hope that helps in some small way.
Try to look at it in a different light, as all alcohol is LIQUID DRAINO.
...no matter how pretty the bottle may look, no matter how many people are consuming it, no matter how many people may say: alcohol has health benefits: it's all excuses and lies.
It obviously got U hooked and alcohol clearly did not bring U happiness or bring U good times.
Remember U are not loosing anything when U give up alcohol.
Step 1 would be completely lost on me. If I lose sight of Step 1, being an alcoholic, I may never get another chance to sober up again. During my times of relapse - and there were many, I had the illusion of life being back in my control and that was my downfall. I failed to do what was required to STAY sober. I can never be complacent and I will be an alcoholic for my lifetime. I have 8 years now, like you had, but we both know that is not an insurance against drinking again, it's all about what I need to do in this 24 hours. Go thoroughly through the programme because even if you have "done it before" you will likely find that Step 1 needs looking at more searchingly.
I'm just curious.
I am an alcoholic. With a few daily exercises I can live today without booze I found a haven and refuge in AA
It is possible. C'mon
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