Good for you! I remember how liberating it felt to dump it all out. My recommendations for relaxing are scented candles and herbal tea. A nice fire if you have a fireplace.

I drink tea now...There are some really cool ones out there like 'Tension Tamer' and 'Sleepy Time'. They are very healthy and relaxing at the end of the day. Best of luck, you are making a wise choice : )!

Hi Seeking,

Its good that you are seeing a therapist for your childhood issues, thats great. However, if you do not get help for your drinking, then all the therapy in the world won't change a darn thing.

I had many many excuses for why I drank, and only ONE valid reason.... I am an alcohlic, thats IT.

I couldn't address any of my childhood issues until I had good quality sobriety, which means that I was doing the inside work with Recovery IN AA.

I would suggest looking up "Alcoholics Anonymous" in your phone book and call that number and ask for help.

God Bless

SeekingSt...

I've dumped it many times and when I was taking SOMA (a muscle relaxant) I started dumping that too and eventually I quit wasting my money on it and haven't done it for a long time.

Good for you, keep on dumping it.

I know this, my conscience gets the best of me when I'm drinking anymore, I just can't even fool my own self and I just hate that! LOL

good for you, there is all kinds of ways to calm yourself down, therapy,journaling,meditation,yoga and the list goes on.

It might take some time but you'll find what works for you.I started reading,I guess that came about from falling asleep while reading the big book..L.O.L.

I can't tell you how many times I have dumped Alcohol and then I would hear that voice that always seemed to tell me that I didn't have a problem.
The way that you described that you were drinking does sound like that of an alcoholic, if not it's sitting right there on the line, and trust me the line is very thin. There are 3 stages of Alcoholism, it doesn't come on all at once. It is a gradual disease.
In calming yourself we are all different, reading, watching tv, music, deep breathing, exercise the list goes on. There are many things that we can do to calm ourselves without having to put something in our bodies to make us calm.

Good Luck and good for you for making that choice.

The right thing to do. I started taking a hot toddy to get to sleep and the rest is history. Life is better sober as I think you already realise. Good Luck. Mairi

Camomile Tea may help.

You have done well to dump it down the drain,thats where it belongs.I have put the word poison on the labels of alcohol drinks.It has worked well for me when I feel the urge to pick up again.

Thanks for sharing seeking.

Seeking, I drank not to feel too. I share in meetings today. I try to get out what ever is bothering me, telling on myself. Turns out feeling is healthy just uncomfortable. I take herbals at bedtime and melatonin. Good luck.

Dim lights, warm bath, soft jazz (or whatever you like that's quiet) and a book.

I'm with hogrotten, the bb is a good bedtime book.

I decided that it was too soon for me to address my issues from childhood and stopped therapy. I go to out patient treatment for the drinking and AA meetings now. When the emotions and memories get to be overwelming it really helps me to write about them. Kind of purges them out of my thoughts. Other times I just need to stop thinking about all that stuff. A good movie or book is a nice distraction.

*Bump*

ilike to go be with good friends or family. also, drawing helps. or getting on here. haha.

I came from a long line of alcholics, I was the one the family said it would never happen to. Well that changed 5 years ago, I went down quicky. I was a closet drinker, or so I thought, my family always knows. I keep working at it. Good Luck