I guess if your wish is to die young, nobody here will stop you but somehow I think it's the alcohol talking.
Please come back when you are sober.

We will pray for you in the meantime.

God Bless!

yup tell us how that is working for you ten years from now ok?

Oh I am sorry or maybe I misunderstood, but I thought your last post was titled: starting over.
If U R going to drink, then drink... But stop torturing yourself. Do what makes U happy.
From what U have wrote in previous posts, U R giving mixed messages, IMO...

It's so very true that when drinking becomes so much part of our lives without it we feel listless and life has no "color". Of course, that's until the price to be paid for those fleeting good times becomes too high...Or the fleeting good times become non-existent, leaving nothing but the nightmare...Please consider giving up on the booze not yourself...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHkrpKYehcI

...i did not mean to come off as an ass...

I'm sorry that you feel so low, and that you had access to beer at such a tender age. If you've drank most of your life it may seem like torment to do without booze and that there's nothing going on but that's just the transitional stage.
The way you feel when you first get sober is not how you are going to feel for the rest of your life. You feel your feelings, share how you feel with someone, and then you feel better. I've been sober almost eight years now and it gets more interesting every day.
You are not alone. Hugs.

See a doc. There may be a problem that drinking is masking.

Maybe drinking is different for you than it was for me. For me it became a living hell. Yeah, there were times when I was drinking that I "felt alive" but it was an awful life. I hit a point where even when I was drunk all I wanted to do was drink more... not to chase a fleeting moment of happiness. But to pass out and shut out the pain I was living in. Now that I am sober, I am not chasing a feeling or numbing out pain.

I hope you find some joy in life. I don't think you will find it at the bottom of a bottle.

So if you are happy drinking then why come to an alcoholism board?
If you don't care, as you've said, then enjoy it.
Personally I too started drinking and doing other stuff at a ridiculously young age. So change was hard as I had a life time of bad habits, disorders, etc. Now free of all of that I'm able to live a life that's unbelievably rich and fulfilling to me. The idea of an early grave has zero appeal as I see every minute as a gift.
I do remember when I didnt care either. That's 'cause I didnt know any better.

Dear whyzac, You say that " good things happen when im drinking"
Please, share some of those "good things" that have happpened to you
I would like to know if I am perhaps missing something by being sober
Maybe you've found a better way to be intoxicated, please elaborate
And thank you for being bold enough to proclaim your independence

I know how it feels to be so incredibly depressed that substances are the only thing that seem to make a difference. Without them you dontcknow how you're going to get through each day.

I'm going to take it hour by hour, minute by minute if i have to. It doesnt seem like the right time for me to stop drinking. I'm looking at harm minimisation strategies at the moment. We have to do what works for us. Drinking doesnt work for me right now but neither does sobriety. Its a shitty place to be but i'll find my way. So will you!

MeeMoMo beat me to it!

Funny- I didn't drink to feel alive; I drank so I didn't feel...

im glad some of you understand where im coming from... i ment that the only time i feel good anymore is when im drinking, obviously its not something i like or i wouldn't be venting about it here, i was trying to explain how i felt looking for some sort of support to justify how wrong my though pattern was....

I know the feeling;, But the euphoria will not last. Eventually, the alcohol takes over and you have to drink just to keep the jitters away.

When I first had to contemplate the idea of living without alcohol, it depressed me because I missed those evenings and the "buzz" that accompanied. But I wasn't able to get the buzz anymore.

It was until I was able to open my mind enough to find fulfillment in other things; there is a great big world out there, with a lot of interesting stuff......and I had been missing all of it in my drunken stupor.

Start finding other things to fill your evenings, because I guarantee that what you're seeing as the benefits of drinking will not last. After that, it's pure slavery.

And reach out to other people. Drinking turns us "inward".

Of course this person is drunk!! the reason they are posting this on here is because they feel so rubbish and are crying for help........

And drinking does give mixed messages. When you are sober you want to give up when you are drunk you want to stop.

Im guessing you are on here as you want to stop whyzac. One hour at a time.