Hi April! I'm new around here, just joined tonight... Figured I gotta try something.
What's your poison? How long have you been trying to go sober?

Drinking was my default. It was how I dealt with the world. Thing was it was my master. I had to drink or I was going to die... Well I tell you that was a lie. I didn't die. I didn't drink today. It's one day at a time but it is very possible if you take a few simple actions. You can do it if you make up your mind to find something to replace the booze.
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Get help. Find a program. AA works for me but there is SMART Recovery and Allen Carr'a program.

Hey April,
It's not the end of the world. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again! It's a bumpy ride trying to get sober. I had many false starts in the last two years, but after doing this to myself for 30 years, May 19 was the last straw for me. I HAD to get sober and found the determination to do it this time. You CAN do it! Find an AA group if that's what it takes. Don't give up. If you really want to get sober, you can do it!!! HUGS!!!

Hi April, I just know this is going to happen to me too. Good thing is to talk about it on here and think sod it, I will forget that I cocked up and just start again. This is not easy and nobody on here will judge you.

1is2 that is EXACTLY how I think, if I stop completely I will either have a grand mall seizure or heart attack and the thought terrifies me. Can I ask did you come off gradually with the help of a medical organisation/doctor to avoid this.
Thanx as always.
Gy.

I was drinking over 14+ beers and a bottle of rum the last night I drank. June 9, 2012. I was absolutely chained to the drink. I woke up on a Sunday morning after making a complete as out of myself, almost burning my house down and royally pissing my wife off. I was really so callous that I didn't care. But I had a moment that I knew if I kept it up I would die. I had visited a transplant ward at a hospital a few weeks before and I now believe those miserable ppl in those rooms told me my future.

Well I went out the front door and was just too ashamed to go back home. I drove around all day and eventually looked up an AA mtg and went. I will never forget how close the chairs were and how I just sweated and shook. But I found hope.

I went every day and the first week was a beast. But it was like Star Wars and the Death Star. The farther I got away the less the pull was.

I picked up my four year chip last week. Yesterday I led a meeting. I know that this alcoholism that I have will take me back to 14 beers and a bottle if I have " one". So I just stay in motion

Fear was what kept me drinking, fear was the driving force in my life

Fk fear. I eat it for breakfast today and get it out of the way

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The first couple of weeks is particularly hard because you are fighting the withdrawal. You have the power. Use all the power that you have not to give in. As the days increase it get easier. If you fail try again. If you fail many times, see a doctor about help withdrawing.

Try again. You can do it.

Oh honey that's what we do when left to our own devices/. disease. we drink. Tampa has tons of AA meetings. Get yourself to a few. Then a few more. See what happens.
Hang in there.