I noticed the more I do the steps, the more I apply spiritual principles, the more unselfish I become, the less I entertain the implications of ego driven fear, the more God molds me into a person others really find interesting and enjoyable.
More importantly the more I do the steps, and the more spiritual I want to become, the more others, particular those I had major resentments against, for petty and selfish reason, become interesting and people I start to respect very much.
Finding character defect, and accepting that if I accept them, and find contentment or become complacent with them leading my life, is the key to me growing, and becoming a person I can live with, and not drink over.
I have written about my hatred on the inside, hatred for others, but I haven't been able to write about how destructive it is. Recently I had some adversity that tested my recovered state and sobriety. I understand now that my spewing of hatred, even if just venting, and produced by an intense need to be relieved of the "ill" feeling it creates, is immature, and not good for me or my understanding of others.
I see how arrogant it is to cut others down, or see the negative things they might not be able to rid themselves of. Hatred, immaturity, arrogance, these are qualities I do not want to build a name off of. I see and know that revelation or realization is very health and must be inspiriation from God, I am not that type of guy who one day decides that being arrogant, selfish, immature, and a hater isn't something I am going to pay attention to any more.
If you're new, and don't know, and are struggling, just stay committed, do the right things, and life will mold into a plan from God that erases worry, fear, and not knowing with confidence, courage, and an unlimited supply of love that is worth living for.
I have been with the same guy for almost 8 years now. Nothing has changed, our relationship has not grown or strenghtened if anything it has worsened over the years. As I have grown into a different and stronger person over the years I look at him and see no future anymore. I have always hoped we would buy a home, get married and have kids. But I know that is not our future together at least with...
i am still sober after trying to rejoin AA in March. Had “dropped out” of it in April of 2017 and remained sober until a relapse in September 2017. Had been attending meetings regularly and got a female sponsor who didn’t work out because she was starting law school, engaged to be married, etc. she thought she would be able to handle it but it was becoming very evident to me that she...