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Day 1 yesterday, I literally thought I wanted to die.
I did not drink last night and was so pleased. The night dragged on and it was really boring. By dinner time I am usually buzzing around cleaning nothing. Thinking I look fantastic. When I know I look like crap and sound like crap, slurring and talking rubbish.
I ate loads of sweets and popcorn. I don't want to swap one addiction, booze, for another, sweets. But at the moment I do not care.
I tried to talk to my husband and promise him that I won't drink again, but he's not interested, which is understandable, he has heard it all before.
I woke in the night and was waiting for my hangover to hit me. But it didn't and that felt wonderful. This morning I was up with the lark, doing chores. It felt great to have a clear head. I really like this feeling. Apart from my eyes being puffy from crying most of yesterday.
Like I said last night was easy not to drink. I will struggle today. I have arranged to do some activities at wine o'clock. I am really going to try and do this.
I did not drink last night and was so pleased. The night dragged on and it was really boring. By dinner time I am usually buzzing around cleaning nothing. Thinking I look fantastic. When I know I look like crap and sound like crap, slurring and talking rubbish.
I ate loads of sweets and popcorn. I don't want to swap one addiction, booze, for another, sweets. But at the moment I do not care.
I tried to talk to my husband and promise him that I won't drink again, but he's not interested, which is understandable, he has heard it all before.
I woke in the night and was waiting for my hangover to hit me. But it didn't and that felt wonderful. This morning I was up with the lark, doing chores. It felt great to have a clear head. I really like this feeling. Apart from my eyes being puffy from crying most of yesterday.
Like I said last night was easy not to drink. I will struggle today. I have arranged to do some activities at wine o'clock. I am really going to try and do this.
Congratulations.
Day 2 was hard for me and so was Day 3.
Day 4..things started to look and feel better. Keep it up...only time will prove to your husband and others that you are really trying.
I feel I have this little villain in my head, saying "just have one, you will be ok" and I'm agreeing with it. But I know if I have one, I will have one more etc.
This is so hard.
I have 11 days and only 6 of them have been crystal clear without withdrawal...and they have been wonderful.
Big snowstorm here...so my mind is like...well, everyone is hunkered down....no one will bother me or know...I will just have 6-8...beers and tomorrow will be ok.
I know I will not have 6-8...I will have 12-14....and tomorrow will not be ok...because tomorrow I would tell myself...well you messed up...and now your hungover...so just have 6-8 and then stop...and that is how I always begin my cycle to depression and darkness.
Don't do it!
Dont you do it either Missy2
I feel so clear headed. I can believe how much I have gotten done today...
Try to remember how desperate you were just the other day....and how depressed you were. And the BIG difference in just 2 days. it honestly does get better....and better.
However, I am honestly struggling today....snow is a trigger, actually most things are triggers..but snow is just a little extra push that I don't need right now. I haven't showered today...I'm depressed because I want to drink.....
But seeing you blossom in just 2 days makes me remember...how quickly I can go back to despair.
Thank you.
I'm still thinking about it....its unreal...the pull and the power. On my post about the Drinking Demon....there is a link to an online meeting if you want to try it.
I figure $15 a day for an 18pack puts me at $255 ahead today! So that has been helping me pass the time when I'm done at the end of the day. I haven't bought anything LOL but its just nice to think shoot if I want to why not! The money is there :)
You got this don't let those days you didn't drink go to waste.