Always follow your heart....if it feels right, do it!

Don't be afraid to communicate your feelings, no matter what you are going through because chances are, pretty good that some of us have had the same experience and can relate. I have found that keeping my feelings inside is what triggered my addictions to begin with. Ptsd, and depression that I kept hidden, for years, wanted me to say hello to them instead of denying their existence and when I wouldn't give them the time of day, they made life a living hell for me.

So now I am a much more open person and not as afraid as I use to be and fear is something I work on overcoming, on a daily basis!

God Bless

congratulations on all you have accomplished, and you are very blessed with a good job environment. It's great growth to now want to share emotional stuff, it was one thing that old school sobriety always shunned away from, and I had to just do what I needed to do for my own sobriety. I started going to therapy, and other 12 step groups and group therapy that dealt with my stuff so to speak. It was what I used to self medicate myself into oblivion over, and when I got clean and sober, there were the same problems glaring at me, so I did need additional help. Sharing here is good in the sense that you don't have to wait till an appointment or the doors to a meeting open, you can vent, write, share anytime you want to.

Congrats on your transformation. I am truly in a better place since sobriety. Wouldn’t change it for the world.

I relate with your post so much but I want to point out to you that it is your own positive changes that provided you with qualities that have allowed your to change your world and ultimately your future. Congratulate yourself on taking those small steps that have taught you re-think!!!

From early childhood, we are conditioned by those around us in respect of negative and positive thoughts. And it is our own thoughts whether positive or negative that determine how we cope with life stresses - for us this ultimately ends with us reaching for the bottle!!!

Do you remember when you were a kid and you fell off your bike and scraped your knee and it bled. You go running home crying but instead of giving you a cuddle and saying something nice, your parent says grow up and don't be soft? That taught us not to show our emotions and it taught us not to ask for help - it taught us negative thoughts which led to us making logicial errors.

We begin to over generalise and we start to attribute those negative feelings to ourselves. Example - the boss comes in looking cross. What do we think? We automatically think they are cross with us........... We become to possess a set of beliefs that are essentially negative and pessimistic and these are usually acquired in childhood due to some of horrible event.

By reframing the way we think and how we view things, we retrain our brain to alleviate bad feelings and symptoms - that is huge and that is what you have achieved. Well done you - that is a massive accomplishment.

Be proud of yourself and do what your heart tells you,. Take a moment and google the cognitive triad - you may find some really useful tips.

Good luck

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Thank you all very much!

Bobinmaine, I will follow my heart. Yes, I have also figured out that keeping my feelings inside is led me down the wrong path, and I am teaching that to others.

Fauxartist, old school is okay, but there is some light that has shined on me through classes at school, and that has given me therapy on a lot. Working in behavioral hospital is helping me to realize more about also.


Jeffneedshelp, transformation because of A.A. is taking me down a great path with education, and experience.

Judgefitness, that conditioning from childhood has left some scars, and today I am realizing what to do with them. Thank you fro the positive statement of me needing to see how I have helped make all these great changes.

1is2many, thanks for the link, but is saying there is an error.

congratulations on new life without alcohol. Continue to reach out, it is always beneficial to bounce things off of other people. Never on this journey alone. As far as the job change- if it was me trying to make a decision I'd make a pro and con list and weigh them closely. As I tell my son it is easier to find a job when you have a job but always give a notice to your current employer.
best wishes- praying you seek wise counsel and for the doors that God has planned for you be opened wide.

Fibrowarrior, this an awesome to wake up to. I weigh pro and con against almost everything, but I need to make a list. I am spiritual and thank you for being a angel in this matter. God definitely has a plan, and I am finally following, and staying out of the way.

Thank you!