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cant believe I didnt see it!!

nickyj18022002
nickyj18022002
Because of a couple of things that are happening to people I know and my reaction to them I have realised that I am so fixated on the assumption that people can be attention seeking and manipulative that I can sometimes behave quite badly, show lack empathy, get angry with people and generally have an umpleasant attitude. I know that it originates from fear which leads to anger and that fear probably originates from things that happened in my earlier life but that is no excuse. It shows a lack of trust in people - I assume they have bad motives and wait for them to prove different instead of the opposite.

I have sort of known this before but something happened this week which made me see it differently and sort of "know" it in a different way if that makes any sense.

How true is it that more will be revealed!! I do a lot of inventory work and try to move towards living spiritually but sometimes I can miss things that are right at the end of my nose!! Hope I am not the only one...

Now i have seen it, time to try and change it :)
deleted_user
deleted_user
Of course people are attention seeking! We all like attention-to be noticed. I think that when someone starts acting like a child and gets really unruly-I sort of feel bad for them, like they are really in a lot of inner turmoil.

I think as far as seeing stuff more clearly in others-I notice I see others more clearly when I am ready to see myself in a more realistic way as well. When I am pissed off in general others-usually I am going through something within me I need to look deeper at.
nickyj18022002
nickyj18022002
What really drew my attention to it was that one of the people in my therapy group (who I have previously got on pretty well with) has been admitted to hospital (mental health ward at the hosp where we have therapy). Instead of my first thought being that she must be having a really hard time I have been ranting and raving about how she is doing it for attention, to try and control the group by making people feel sorry for her, how she doesnt really want to get well, just runs away when things are difficult etc etc All pretty negative and all based on my fear that I wont get any attention because I always get overlooked because I am not the type of person to cause a fuss and look for attention (not always true!!).

Its not the way I want to be because I dont want to make assumptions like that and also it doesnt make me feel good.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I think that she sounds like she really needed attention-and perhaps you need to get some attention too?

Try and stir it up a little, and get the attention you need. We all want to be noticed-and if we are not then we tend to get resentful.

I know for me I get annoyed with woman who at some level I may be envious of.

Time to cause a fuss~
deleted_user
deleted_user
Great thread, great stuff to think about. Thanks for sharing nickyj180.
CoogeeMum
CoogeeMum
Going through something similar here Nicky except in the path of bad intentions. Bounced it off a colleague and she reminded me I can only do my best to do the next right thing and to keep myself in check and in peace. Gave me a reminder of what was important in my life. Was a good reminder I'd been distancing myself from friends lately and feeling a little unbalanced. Ah, life goes on. :}
stickywick
stickywick
Amen that. Its been proven over and over to me that when I slow down, and stop assuming I know the path, that the path becomes clear. That most the time its been there all along, right under my nose, and I was just looking at it in a way that distracted me and kept me in the problem or at least off course.
I've also been slowly learning that when I'm upset, when a behaviour irritates me, it really really IS because I'm seeing something of myself mirrored back. And that is a tough one to swallow.
deleted_user
deleted_user
well ya know i dig ya NickyJ, and also know your beliefs.
but my brain jumped to bottom of page 66 thru middle page 67.
I am sure you kno whow to rearrange it in alliance to your inner workings.