Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I have just got back from a meeting and I really wanted to share but I chickened out! I never share at meetings partly because I'm scared and partly because there is never a break in the conversation anyway so I don't now how to get in.
But I thought I would share here instead I was on a night bus this morning at 5AM and got a view of the real debris from the night before (saturday night) there was a guy with blood pouring down his head peeing at the side of the road, 2 guys on the bus talking about the girls whose numbers they didn't get and a couple pretending to have sex against a shop window on one of the busiest streets in London basically I saw just how nasty that culture is and yet i know I had done all of the above but 10 times worse! but although I can see how nasty this culture is I can still feel like i'm missing out on something but what is it i think I'm missing?
But I thought I would share here instead I was on a night bus this morning at 5AM and got a view of the real debris from the night before (saturday night) there was a guy with blood pouring down his head peeing at the side of the road, 2 guys on the bus talking about the girls whose numbers they didn't get and a couple pretending to have sex against a shop window on one of the busiest streets in London basically I saw just how nasty that culture is and yet i know I had done all of the above but 10 times worse! but although I can see how nasty this culture is I can still feel like i'm missing out on something but what is it i think I'm missing?
Sounds like old tapes playing. Remember it's not been long since you stopped drinking.
Mayday I look at it from the gross perspective....I mean come on, do I really miss peeing behind a dumpster with my panties around my ankles and then falling in said pee & picking gravel outta my butt?? NO! Do I really miss sex simulated or otherwise with men who I have to ask "what was your name again?"?? NO! I never had blood on my face but you get the picture...
If I was missing the risk factor, I'd just as soon eat some blowfish or play Russian roulette than to go back to that pit of hell! Being clear headed & noticing others at 5am instead of trying to make my way home after a night of who knows what sounds much more desirable to me.... :) (well, not the being awake at 5am part but you know....)