Have you ever thought about an inpatient or outpatient treatment program?

Like you, I had no idea what was triggering me. When I went through intake, at the hospital's alcohol and and substance abuse program, I was asked hundreds of questions through which those counselors knew more about me then I knew about myself so I was treated for those underlying problems that triggered my drinking. Once those demons were exorcised from me with therapy, the rest was a piece of cake!

So it sounds like you are faced with a life or death decision. Do you try something different or do you continue to stay on that same train that is guaranteed to crash when it reaches the end of the line!

I will pray for you, my friend!

God Bless!

I'm sorry to hear that. But it's good you posted and got it out in the open. I am new t this at only 4 weeks alcohol free, but have stopped before and know how disheartening it is to give in. It's really hard now but you can make it. You might try something by Brene Brown. Although she doesn't speak to alcohol or addiction directly her insight on shame were very helpful for me.
Don't give up on yourself! You are worthy of love and acceptance.

Is your psychiatrist doing anything to treat the underlying anxiety and depression? You're using alcohol to self medicate so until you find a suitable alternative to treat those issues it is going to be hard for you to quit.
They do have AA meetings during the day and online if that is an option you want to explore.
Sorry to hear that you are struggling.......
Huge hugs

I never knew why I drank but found out its b/c I'm alcoholic. I like the effect of alcohol. I did find that if I was able to cut the booze out that the anxiety and stress mostly went away

Get some new glasses and get into action. I was always a victim of this and that and never took responsibility until I learned a bunch of reasons why and how to not drink in AA. It saved me from coffin time

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"Because I'm an alcoholic" is not a reason to drink. The vast majority of people that use alcohol and/or drugs to an unhealthy degree are doing so to cope with underlying emotional issues.
You can attend AA til the cows come home but until you address those issues you are always going to struggle with some type of addictive behaviour to cope. If a person happens to find that through AA, good for them. Didn't work for me - I had to attend personal counselling and deal with the anxiety and depression.

Get to a first AA meeting, share that you can't drive at night. If you live in a decently-populated town, someone in that meeting will volunteer to drive you, if you are desperate to stop drinking.

If you need to don't look at the whole day. Take it hour by hour infinite by minute. I have just a little over a week. And some days were just so hard. So I said for the next hour I'm not going to drink. And then continued on from there.
Each person finds help through different venues. If you can call your local AA office and let them know your situation. Maybe they would have an option or a closer meeting that doesn't require you to drive there.
In the mean time keep checking back in every day. I'm praying for you and will be looking forward to hearing from you again.
We have all been where your at. At we feel the pain your feeling. We will be there for you. We are all in this together.
God bless

What did you tell yourself before you broke the promise not to drink? I would say things like "I can't handle it but a drink will make me feel better." I realized that I still had a very positive relationship with alcohol. We finally broke up when I came to believe that alcohol had no redeeming qualities for me anymore.

I'm so sorry that you are struggling. Please keep checking in. Getting sober on your own can be difficult but don't give up on yourself

Gentle hugs

When i first stopped drinking i had a lot of anxiety right after. I luckily am on an anxiety med and with the help of my Dr. I got through that rough period. Almost at 90 days now and feeling better than i have in a long time. Somedays are easier than others. I say some days i take it an hour at a time and some fly by. I am confused by what your doctor said about anxiety most should understand it is not really a rational thing. There are just sometimes you can have a panic attack from basicallly out of nowhere. As others have said there are many options for meetings i go to an early one on Sat before most of my house is even awake. Online is another choice. I have found great comfort and help with my sponsor too we text every night and i know i could always call on her if i felt the urge to drink.

The yo-yo lifestyle of drinking too much, sobering up, and then drinking too much again will make you incredibly anxious. Your body is constantly rebounding between getting drunk and sobering up again. I was very anxious during the first seven days sober. And somewhat anxious throughout the first month. Although the timeframe is different for everyone, I think you probably need 30 days sobriety just to calm down. And watch out for caffeinated drinks and too much sugar during this time period.

I ended up drinking the day I posted that and again yesterday. Its a shame all you guys are in the US because of the time difference. I think I worked out what was triggering me this time. So today is day 1 again. I'm supposed to go for another liver function test tomorrow but will put it off for a few days to get the alcohol out of my system. I think I just give in too easily to cravings and need to be ready for the fight of my life or maybe a fight for my life. My psychiatrist upped my antidepressant. He doesn't believe in alcoholism the same as most specialists. Thank you for all your messages. It gave me a lot to think about. I'll try the one hour at a time thing to get through today. The anxiety is still there but it seems I'm not alone in suffering from it. Its nice to know I am not alone in this.

No you're definately not alone sweetchick

I was having back pains , went to the dr and found out My liver enzymes were elevated three times the normal amount!! so guess what I Did? Went straight to the bar and drank. That was How I coped. I finally decided about a month later to seek help from other alcoholics. That was June of 12. I took another liver enzyme test at 6 months and then were way down. ( just 1 number over normal) I took another test at a year and the number was in the normal range.

I went from a alt of 155 to under 55

I was digesting myself and the only way to stop was to quit drinking

It is possible if you take action. I had to learn how to cope w/o booze

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