I'm new on here and reading the posts with a sinking heart. Denial is a powerful thing and I have a feeling that's the phase I'm in.....

Denial is a huge issue and alcohol is cunning, baffling, and powerful.

The minute you think you can control it, you screw up.

I've done it dozens of times. It wasn't until I went to AA, that I eliminated my need for drinking.

Only you know if that's the right path for you. There are other methods like Smart recovery and Allen Carr's book.

Hati and humphrey'smom you can beat this and you have support her. Feel free to message me here if you need more support beyond this board.

There are many awesome people who got and keep their sobriety from all kinds of ways.

I hope you find your path.

Take it 24 hours at a time. It helped me to start each morning saying not today. AA was a tremendous help for me as well

I made a lot of failed half-hearted attempts at giving up alcohol, but always I decided at some point that 'I was alright now" and could drink again. WRONG!!! Since I found this site and read all the stories, I realized OMIGOD, I AM AN ALCOHOLIC :( Once I admitted that, then quitting became a matter of survival. I don't want to lose my job and my home and everything else, but that's where I was headed. Once you are finally honest with yourself, the demon loses some of its hold over you. But the struggle is never over. You must be vigilant every day.

I cannot remember ever having one. From the beginning it was as many as I could get my hands on. I never wanted one I wanted to be checked out. Problem was that I became addicted and couldn't live without booze. It became my master. Only way I found to stay sober is to meet up with other alcoholics and together it is possible to live sober AND happy. Life is awesome without the anchor I was dragging around. I thought I couldn't live without it, now I don't want a drink. That's a miracle
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Thankyou for your replies. I will keep fighting this. I did go to AA, some lovely people there but at the time didn't feel it was for me. Is smart recovery or women for sobriety just online does anyone know? I live in the U.K.

Everytime I limited my options in recovery, I relapsed. After trying hundreds of times to quit and failing miserably each time, I decided to put my faith and trust into something I had been trying to avoid. By then, my life had fallen apart. Physically, mentally, and spiritually, I was a broken man! My recovery started with a 3 week IOP (Intensive outpatient program) followed by 3 months of relapse prevention group counseling. Throughout all the treatment I had, regular attendance at AA meetings were a requirement.

That was 8 years ago. Today, I live my life by the 12 steps and I have never been happier!

God Bless!

Hi hati, Smart Recovery is where my gp referred me to. On looking into it, they are online as well as their Recovery Rooms. Mine is a couple of miles drive. From what I am reading of them they also arrange home visits. I am not looking forward to going and maybe this could get me started with a home visit. I am also in the UK.
Something has to give. Where abouts are you?
Hugs .....G