Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Taradactyl 12/22/2009

Seems some feelings got triggered for me today. A little bit of hurt mixed with a little bit of anger and frustration leads me to that fuck everything mode of rage that ends in self destruction. I am only 8 days sober, so I know my head is still messed up. I can't believe I again have a desire to drink after the last bender.

I worked late, came home, and non-alkie hubby is passed out from drinking. Fortunately, he seems to have either hidden or finished the booze.

I don't have much positive to say except I'm still sober and haven't picked up a drink.

I went to my 9th meeting in 8 days today. I got through step 1 yesterday. I called and talked to 3 different people tonight. I'm still struggling.

I don't want to drink because I don't want to die and I don't want to hurt anyone else anymore. I don't want to drink through Christmas. I don't want this to get worse than it already is. I don't want to go through another detox.

Thanks for the vent.

okiyoe1 12/22/2009

No Anna thank you ....
you go girl....
Billy

gjm 12/22/2009

No vent my friend just being honest.
Sounds like you hit a point of just being sick and tired of being sick and tired. Hopefully this the bottom for ya.

I'm going to re post a thread on struggling I'm sure you relate.

deleted_user 12/22/2009

Let it out and let us warm and hold you

deleted_user 12/22/2009

We're all here to help each other get through this, so vent, cry whatever helps you to get through the rough spots. Youdon't have to go through this alone.

deleted_user 12/22/2009

I use to keep myself busy when feeling like that or I try doing something fun. Sometimes it is hard to do either, one is left eating their left arm off through tears and heart ache. It will always pass and you never need the first drink. one day at a time and baby steps will help you not worry so much of the future or the past. I can not imagine how hard it must be for you to stay away from the first one with hubby drinking in front of you. I could not have done it with someone drinking around me so you have done very well today.

deleted_user 12/22/2009

howto, imagine the headache he's gonna wake up with, lol.

Hang in there. It will get sooooo much better. Especially since you're working in the solution.

deleted_user 12/22/2009

I've felt that way. The advice I got was to sit down and write out a list of all the times that I drank in a way I hadnt intended or binged. Any that I could remember.

I got one full page, single spaced, college ruled....

...and I got the point.

deleted_user 12/22/2009

Anna I know for me the insanity in my mind overwhelmed me at times. So much so that the only thing I could do was hold on to the hand in front of me and take the steps they were taking. It took everything I had do not just say fuck it and give up. And if the is all I accomplish for that day then that was a good day. Yea I probally still felt like shit on the days end but it did not matter cuz it was another day under my belt. The more days equalled more progress equalled less days that I want to just say fuck it. Our days do not have to be perfect or pretty and most likely there not going to be. So it is OK to have all those fucked up thoughts. It is normal. Just don't let go of our hands and I promise you'll be led in the right direction. ;)

deleted_user 12/22/2009

I love you. You love me. We're a happy family with a great big hug, and a kiss from me to youuuu. Wont you say you love me toooo!?!

hahahaha

(Barney)

deleted_user 12/22/2009

I sure understand your feelings. It does get wearisome after a lot of failed attempts. But the alternative is much much worse.

Keep the faith friend!

deleted_user 12/23/2009

You are doing great....hang in there. I'm really sorry that he thoughtlessly drank and passed out on you, I hope he does shape up. It is just soooooo difficult especially those first few months....do whatever it takes to stay strong and sober. Hugs d

drafter 12/23/2009

Hang in there and call someone when you feel that way. K?

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