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linajoy
linajoy
I just got six months of sobriety and now I'm so over it. I want to drink, and I have a feeling it's going to happen soon.

I wonder why?! Well first off,
1) I don't have a sponsor anymore.
2) I don't go to meetings.
3) I hardly ever open my big book.

I'm not in any mood to do any of those things right now. Seriously, I went to a meeting last night and I didn't absorb anything. All I heard from the speaker was, "Blah blah blah - spirituality - blah blah - 12 steps - blah yada - god this, god that."
In my head I was like, "fuck you and your god", because my "god" has failed me and I don't believe anything. Spirituality? Every time I obtain it I lose it.

It seriously hasn't gotten easier for me. Sobriety sucks and is a bitch. People say that I should talk about it. Well, the more I talk about it, the more I want shots of Jack.

I'm just so pissed off and angry. My dad recently had a stroke and it hurts. That's the number one thing for me right now.
deleted_user
deleted_user
OK I may be really off but you pretty much said it you want a drink hun you really have to want to stop drinking and I am thinking that you really havnt told yourself that that is what you want to do. that is why when you goto meetings you are not getting anything because you really dont want to. nothing will even start to help if you havnt really decided you want to give up drinking. I am sorry to hear about ur dad hun.
linajoy
linajoy
whoa, excuse me but i've been to rehab twice and how dare you fucking tell me that i wanna drink. i do want this, there is just too much going on and i am overwhelmed.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I was not being mean at all you took it the wrong way...I was also in rehab and I know how things can be over whelming. I went through a time when I wanted to drink to and I realzized that I knew things wouldnt work unless I really wanted to give it up...that was me.
what about getting a sponsor? find someone that you think you would click with and trust.
again I wasnt being mean I was only stating what I saw and didnt mean to upset you sorry.
deleted_user
deleted_user
lina, your title of your post is how I am feeling lately, angry and frustrated. I am sober just a little longer than you-perhaps just hold on and your inspiration will come back? That is what I am holding out for, that feeling of hope-sounds like you have lost a lot of your hope. I don't know what to say really to make you hang on and not drink, I just know I can relate and I feel frustrated too. Please don't make any deadly decisions right now, your emotions are not your friend sounds like.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry about your dad.
Here's what I know to do. I hit the meetings, I do steps 10&11. And pray a little.
And it doesn't matter how I feel about it. Because it doesn't matter how I feel about it. I'm still an alcoholic and addict. And all this stuff still works even when it's all crap. Your dad probably wants you to keep it together despite how much you hurt.
Peace,
Mike
deleted_user
deleted_user
Lina...You nailed it the number 1, 2, and 3 reasons people go back to drinking. I have heard sobriety called slowbriety. the process never ends. I found that speaker meetings were great for filling out my court card years ago and rarely found a speaker that delivered the message I needed to hear especially if it is about his God that is so great and you feel that yours has let you down. Spirituallity can be taken into your own hands kind of like Karma...I do something nice fof someone expecting nothing in return and do it anonymously..It keeps me out of trouble and most important out of myself....One drunk talking to another is how this program has worked through the years and we are all the same distance from the bottle..one arms length.